Emotions

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It's been a year now but still Khaotung can't forget his first love.

The rain started to pour but still he waits and waits waiting for the girl who left him years ago. The girl and him was planning to run away.

Khaotung was holding his phone wishing that the girl he love for so long will regret leaving him and go back to him now but that's impossible especially the girl he loved was already married and had a child carrying in her stomach. But for Khao it doesn't matter he can accept whatever relationship the girl gives to him. Even if the girl was already married khao was willing to accept her. Khao just love the girl so much that he can't forget her.

And now that the girl he waited for so long picks up the call, khaotung smiles and wiped his tears away but the smile painted on his face fades immediately when he hears the words he don't wanted to hear from that girl. He don't expect it he thought the girl he love will finally choose him now but he was wrong.

"Khao I'm sorry but i can't go with you. I-i love my baby so much, i know my husband was abusive but still i love him Khao please forgive me. I just want my family to be complete. I don't want the baby inside my stomach to born without knowing his father."

Khaotung felt his world stop when he hears all of that, he wanted to kill the guy and encouraged the girl he love to go with him. Khaotung was willing to accept the child and love the baby like he was the real father but the girl on the other line just cried and say sorry for him many times because she can't run away with him now.

"Jiye please leave him now... your husband was abusing you please run away with me if you're worried about you and the baby inside your stomach don't worry i am willing to be the father just please go with me now." Khaotung begged never in a million years he begged like this. This boy who was strong and never cried before was now crying on a phone like a baby. "Please don't leave me. I love you Jiye please choose me now."

Khaotung just cried and cried not minding at the people who passed by staring at him.

"Khao listen" Jiye said crying also on the other line. "Stop crying please. I-i don't deserve those tears. Please forget me now i know you can find someone who was better than me and this is be the last time i will call you so don't find me or contact me ever again. I love you too but not the way----" she stopped there, not wanting to say more to make the younger boy hurt more. She already hurt Khaotung so much even though the younger boy was so good to him and love him, Jiye only sees Khaotung as her younger brother nothing more.

"I-it's okay Jiye. It's okay if you love him. It's okay if you just used me. It's okay. I'll still accept you. Please, don't leave me. It's okay if you love him more than me but can you please stay with me." Khaotung begged desperately.

Just thinking a life without Jiye breaks his heart. Jiye was his first love, first friend and only girl that showed him true love.

"You will find your true love too. I know just like how i found Minho. You just have to believe. I hope someday you'll forgive me."

Jiye said one last time before she ended the call leaving Khaotung in miserable state.

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It's a good thing that the break up happened by the end of the school year and accept the offer of his parents to go to a different place and enrolled in different school. It will help him to heal and forget Jiye quickly. Seeing the place he always go with Jiye, like parks and also his own room before when they had a kissed and making out before Jiye had a husband was putting a salt on his wound. It makes more painful.

And when he thought he can finally moved on. He had to meet a boy. Which reminds him a lot of Jiye and the past he wanted to forget so bad.

Faith was really a big joke isn't it.