Emotions

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Khaotung panted heavily while running through every possible places First could be at. The reason Khaotung finding First and running like this is because First run away when an old men customer requested for First to have sex with Khaotung and filmed it. First was scared and had a traumatizing experience infront of the camera that's why he run away.

And now Khaotung had to looked everywhere for the past twenty minutes.

Khaotung already told it to Shin and Shin on the phone cursed at him and threatened him that if First didn't do what the customer wanted they will fucking rape First again, they will filmed it and spread the videos. Khaotung don't want that to happen, he don't want to watch the boy he love being hurt again.

So he run and run until he stop to the maple tree near the train station. Then he saw First figure with shoulder hunched down in sadness. He sniffled quietly complaining to the three stray kittens that they always saw everytime they go home.

"First?" Khaotung called out, his voice laced with worries and his heart breaking into a million pieces. He couldn't help himself when First turned around with a tear stained face, dabbing it with his sleeves in a hopeless effort not to show his weak side to khao.

"Why did you run? Fuck you make me so worried about you." The only words Khaotung said as he quickly hug First making First to broke into tears again, dampening Khao's shirt.

"I-i got scared please Khao can i quit this job. P-please tell your friends to delete the video please." First cried softly.

Khaotung wanted to cry when he saw First slowly dying everyday because of the job he was forced too. Khaotung felt his own guilt eating his insides while looking into First crying infront of him which made him feel like he had messed up. Wordlessly, khaotung pulled First again into a tight hug, hiding his chin in the crook of his neck while mumbling those lies he always say for First not to try to run away or cut himself again. "Okay I'll tell them to delete the video just please don't do that again. Don't try to run away."

"P-promise khao?" First spoke between choked up sobs.

"I promise." Khaotung answered smiling as he hug the crying boy more tightly. After that he finally let go when First mumbled softly that he can breathe because of the tight hug.

"Meow!" One of the three cats came running back again into First feet, meowing at First like First was their lost owner. Khaotung thought as he watched First taking care of those stray kittens. It was amusing for Khaotung how seconds ago First was crying but now he had a bright smile on his face.

Khaotung loves it when First smile like that..

It was summer afternoon, exactly 4:35 pm as it shows on the screen of Khao's phone and a lot of messages coming from his friend Shin. Khaotung ignored all of that and just watched First playing with the kittens and feel the light breeze blew making dandelion anthers scattered all around First and the kittens like a snowflakes. He recorded all of that using his phone not wanted this wonderful memory to be like a fever dream.

After that Khaotung decided to invite First to the nearest shop and buy a food for them to eat while watching the sun going down and kites flying on the sky.

"Do you wanna know what's my dream, khao?" First mumbled eyes closed leaning his head to Khao's shoulder.

Khaotung didn't replied and just eat the food they buy silently while watching those kites flying through the sky. Khaotung wanna asked why but he was afraid of First gonna answer to him.

"If i die someday my dream is i wanted to have chance to fly like a kite. I wanna fly through the---" First continued breaking the silence but Khaotung interrupted him.

"First!" Khaotung shouted but instead of First saying to him to stop shouting because he was scared of loud noise First just cried softly.

"D-do you think all of this will stop if i eat all this food. If i got fat? Do you think your friends stop hurting me? W-what about if i cut my wrist more or my face did your friends will finally delete the videos now." First asked tears streaming down his cheeks. Khaotung felt his heart ache painfully for the crying boy infront of him and he can't do anything but to just watched.