Emotions

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First wanted to escape that's what Khaotung always thought everytime he followed and blackmailed First about the videos. Khaotung don't want to did this threatening to First but he had no choice as Shin tasked him to do that blackmailing and making sure that First did his job being a prostitute after school, selling his body for older men and gives the money to Khaotung.

Khaotung had promised himself that he never get attached to First to avoid getting himself hurt more as he watched all of that happen to First, the forced sex, the prostitution. He watched the boy he slowly like now shattered everyday.

Khaotung wants to get First out of his life he wish that one day First will die so that he won't suffer anymore, while the other part is that he still wants First to stay by his side. For the past two and half weeks, Khaotung never felt so alive and true to himself. He felt as if all his problems and loneliness went away in an instant. He finds himself enjoying First crying and blaming him, the fights they had at empty road that still ends up with Khaotung hugging First wishing that the hug he gives could take the pain away, the rides they shared, the music they listened everytime inside the train for Khao that was the best moments he had experience in his life.

Maybe having First by his side and doing this tasked of following him seems not so bad but not now as he noticed First crying silently by his side inside this train that only two of them was inside.

Khaotung not know how to comfort the boy as he was the one who caused the pain on him at the first place. All he could do was scoot a little closer then wrapping his arms around just to hug him. He was glad that First hug him back finding atleast a little comfort. Khaotung held him closer and started humming a song, hoping it'll make more comfortable for First.

The two stayed like that enjoying each other comfortable silence, "I wanna tell you something..." First just hummed in response.

"I think i like you now Fir-" Khaotung didn't finish his words as he heard a soft little snores.

Khaotung chuckled to that but then he stops as he started to stared longer at First that was sleeping beside him now, then he felt his heart beating crazy he groaned in frustration.

Khaotung wanted to kissed First. It's just one kiss, Khaotung gently brushed the hair from First face then leaned a little closer just to kissed the sleeping boy lips, forehead and wet cheeks then after that without further thinking, he wrapped First in warm embrace again as he hummed a song that he knows First like.

Khaotung had never been this comfortable.