𝙖𝙪𝙜𝙪𝙨𝙩 - lynn loud jr

part 11

lynn's pov

I was sitting in my room as my door opens and slams shut as Luna walks in with her arms crossed 

oh god...

"what do you want!" I cross my arms 

"I want to know why you're acting so weird!" Luna yells at me

"what do you mean?" I roll my eyes 

"oh you know what I mean" Luna puts her hands on her hips 

"I don't..." I say confused 

"whatever" she opens my door but pauses before leaving "you have to stop hiding from your feeling though"

"what is that supposed to mean" I yell before she shuts the door leaving me with my thoughts 

I know exactly what she means...

I really need to talk to Jules 

but I just can't...

I am so scared that I fucked things up last night by doing too much too soon 

I really don't want to ruin this friendship 

she's my favorite person and if I lose her I don't know if I would be able to survive

what do I do?

I'm also really bad at sharing my feelings with anyone 

I've never talked to anyone about how I feel 

I always just bottle up my emotions and use sports as an escape from reality 

why is it so hard to just speak my truth?

before I can get lost in my thoughts any further I get a notification on my phone

@jules.harper has posted a photo

I open my phone to see what she has posted and my heart sinks...

@jules.harper chat what the actual fuck is going on...

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oh shit

this is probably about me isn't it...

I stare at the photo for a while longer admiring her features and how pretty she looks and those lush lips that I was kissing less then 24 hours ago 

god I miss her

I shut off my phone and start to think again 

how am I supposed to talk to her?

am I supposed to just flat out say 'i like you do you like me?'