The World is Ugly, But You're Beautiful to Me. (Frerard)

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Gerard intertwined our fingers, picking my knuckles up to his mouth and kissing them. We sat outside on his front porch, and both of our speeding heartbeats could be felt in our palms. It had been a week since Gerard's dad had returned home from the hospital.

"Are you sure you want to do this now? I've only talked to your parents twice, and the second time I didn't really talk, it was more of an extremely awkward hand wave/salute when I walked you home three days ago" I asked Gerard, looking up at him.

"Yeah, of course I do. I don't want you to have to feel nervous anymore when my mom makes comments that you're scared to answer back to because she might "find out". Our relationship shouldn't be a secret, and I want them to know" Gerard answered, smiling my way and pecking my cheek.

"I'm pretty sure I'll be a terrified loser either way," I said, laughing "but thanks; when your mom made that comment about you talking about me as if I was your girlfriend, I was so worried I was about to run off down the hospital halls".

"Aw you should've, then we could've had one of those cheesy movie moments where the guy chases the girl and then catches her and says "I've always loved you" or some bullshit" Gerard explained, smirking.

"One, we're both guys, dipshit, and two, let's go inside I'm freezing my ass off" I told him, standing up from the porch step and waiting as Gerard unlocked the door. We walked in, and I could smell something great coming from the kitchen.

"Mom, Dad, I'm home! Frank's here too!" Gerard yelled.

"Ah, hello boys. Did you guys have fun today?" Donna greeted, coming in from where I can only assume was where the kitchen is.

"Yep, lots of it" Gerard answered, turning around and winking at me. I just blushed and kicked the back of his ankle (softly). We had spent the day at my house, mostly just making out in my room to Black Flag and Radiohead.

"That's nice, come into the kitchen, I just finished dinner. Mikey and your father are already digging in at the table" Gerard's mom told us, leading the way.

We sat next to each other at the table, and Gerard served me a plate of food before serving his own. I politely greeted Gerard's dad and pretty much just stayed silent as everyone ate. As the meal was about to end, Gerard started to speak.

"Tonight, the reason I brought Frank here was to tell you both something" Gerard said to his parents, getting the attention of both of them. Mikey looked surprised, well as surprised as he could look. I forgot that we hadn't told him we were going to do this.

"Uh, well, I don't really know any other way to say it, so I'll just tell you. Frank and I are together...romantically. I'm gay" Gerard said, and everyone, especially me, was dead silent for a few minutes after. Then, Donna started laughing.

"That's funny, come on Gerard I'm sure Frank doesn't want to be involved in your weird jokes" She said, but when she saw that neither of us were laughing, she stood up.

"No" Donna said, and Gerard's dad had already left the room.

"No what?" Gerard questioned, and I could hear in his tone he was becoming angry.

"No, I'm not letting you be gay. I have nothing against Frank, but things like that are not taking place in my house or in my family" She replied, and I kept my head down, wanting to cry. Gerard looked over at me, then at his mom.

"What the fuck is that supposed to mean? You're not letting me? This is how I was born, and this isn't a bad thing like doing drugs or drinking. This is how I feel!" Gerard spoke, his voice raising as he stood up too. Mikey tried to get both of them to calm down, but neither would sit down.