Dan and Phil in Hogwarts (A Harry Potter Phan AU)

Chapter Four

(dan)

I had been avoiding Phil since the day we went to Hogsmeade. It'd been four days, and I haven't had a full conversation since.

I had started to notice that he wore his glasses on the days we had classes, which made me even more upset that I wasn't in his year. He looked really good in glasses.

That's why you're avoiding Phil, I thought. You like him.

I'd been denying all the random thoughts I have about Phil, and I still was. But I was having them more often.

Today, I was hanging out with Chris outside. Normally I preferred inside the castle to outside, but I had nothing to do inside besides go to the owlry, and there was always the chance Phil would be there.

Chris was complaining about his assignments for Herbology, which was his least favorite class apparently. "And I swear, Professor Sprout has it out for me. She knows I don't know the difference between a Mandrake and Wolfsbane!"

I looked at Chris. "Really? You don't know the difference between-"

"Fine, I was exaggerating a bit, but not much. Sprout hates me, I'm telling you," Chris interrupted.

I sighed and rolled my eyes before looking over at the Whomping Willow, which now had a visitor.

I must have been staring because Chris noticed that Phil was there.

"What's up with you two lately?" He asked.

"Hm? What do you mean?" I asked, pulling my eyes away from Phil back to Chris.

"You and Phil. Don't act like you don't know what I'm talking about! Pj and I both noticed. In fact, we both have our own scenarios about what happened. Mine is more entertaining, personally," Chris answered. Then he continued, "Here's mine: when you went to go check on Phil after he left the Great Hall four days ago, you found Phil snogging some girl and now you're jealous- of Phil or the girl, I dont know- and so you're avoiding Phil. Pj thinks that you just had an argument over something stupid. Who's closer?"

You, I guess. "Neither. We're not avoiding each other," I reply. I look back at Phil and see that he's sitting by the Willow. I want to go sit next to him, but I know I shouldn't. Maybe Phil's wondering what he's done, or maybe he's enjoying the fact that I'm avoiding him. I guess I'll never know.

(phil)

I know that Dan and Chris are sitting not too far away. I know I could go join them. I know that I really shouldn't.

I don't know if Dan's avoiding me or if I'm avoiding Dan. I think I'm avoiding him.

Every time I see him, I hear Lily saying "I think you like Dan." And I know its true. I just don't want him to know that.

I sigh and look back at the Whomping Willow. Recently, Pj and Chris have been the only people I have proper conversations with.

I look to the west and see that the sun is starting to set. I push my glasses up my nose and stand up. I look back to Dan and Chris to see them laughing about something. I'm glad Dan's still happy even though I'm not.

(dan)

I'm miserable without Phil. I wish I had the courage to go say hi again, but I feel I'd make the same mistake I made when I was eleven.

Saying "Hi" to my crush always came out as gibberish.

Is that what Phil is? Is he a crush? I don't think so. Crushes are so common, so unspecial. Phil is more special than just a crush.