🎀 𝙋𝙤𝙢𝙣𝙞 𝙭 𝙍𝙖𝙜𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙖 𝙊𝙣𝙚𝙨𝙝𝙤𝙩𝙨! 🎀 (𝙏𝘼𝘿𝘾🎪)

🌷14# : am I good enough?

Im back y'all
Sorry I've disappeared for a long time. It'll happen again. /Hj
Anyways angst (kind of)
I'm out of ideas so yeah forgive me if this chapter makes no sense lol

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Ragatha POV :

Sometimes, I've been thinking...

Am I good enough for my girlfriend?

I don't feel like I am... I feel like I'm always getting into her personal space, being too chatty and touchy that she's fed up of it.

I'm always trying to be good enough for her... I always try to be there for her...

But I don't feel like she needs me.

What am I doing wrong?

What's wrong with me?

Am I really that messed up?

Too messed up that... She "lost feelings"?

Because she's been kind of distant towards me...

I don't want our relationship to fall apart. I love her.

Should I... Talk to her?

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Pomni POV :

I don't know why but me and Ragatha's been... So distant lately?

It's not that I don't like her anymore, it's just that I don't know how to react whenever she gives me affection.

we've been dating for a while now, and yet I still can't shake the feeling of annoyance but at the same time gratefulness of my girlfriend's affection.

I have to admit, I haven't received this much affection in my life before, from what I've remembered people just treat me like... an extra space? I'm not sure. I can't even wrap my head around it.

should I talk to Ragatha about this?

yeah. I should.

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Ragatha POV :

I'm just sitting on the couch, reading my favorite book. then all of a sudden, I felt someone hug me from behind. when I turn around, it was my girlfriend, Pomni.

"hehe, finally getting the taste of your own medicine, huh?"

she says, looking at me with a smirk.

I can't help but laugh.

"oh, you..."

"um, Ragatha... are you free? because... I want to talk to you about something."

my heart skips a beat.

"yeah, I'm free, for you! what is it you want to talk about?"

she takes a seat next to me.

"look, first off. I'm sorry if I'm kind of distant towards you lately. I know it's pretty likely for me, since we've been together for quite a while. but I've felt like you're getting distant too."

I listen intently to what Pomni is saying.

until, she says...

"Ragatha, are we even working out?"

yet again, my heart feels like it's gonna stop.

"w-what do you mean?"

"um, you know. from what I've heard... relationship is all about communication and working together... so... yeah. but in my opinion I feel like we haven't done those much yet."

I listen to her explanation. I frown, then I hug her tight.

I can feel Pomni flinching in my arms, but I just can't hold myself back.

tears start to stream down from my eyes, as I hug her tighter.

"I'm sorry."

...is what I managed to say before a few seconds of silence. after that, I continue...

"I'm sorry if I haven't been a good girlfriend for you. I just... I want to love you like I should as a lover. I'm sorry if I've been too clingy towards you lately."

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Pomni POV :

I stayed still in Ragatha's embrace as she opens up to me. I froze, not knowing what to do.

I slowly hug her back, closing my eyes.

"it's okay. I feel the same way too."

I whisper, hoping it'll give her a sense of comfort even if it's just a little.

Ragatha hugs me tighter.

she then let's me go to look at me with a tearful smile.

"thank you, darling. thank you for sticking with me, and staying with each other through everything. I made it through everything because of you. you made me keep going. thank you, my love."

I look at Ragatha in the eyes, then I slowly smile. I hug her, burying my face in her shoulder.

"anytime, dolly. thanks to you too, I've managed to become who I am right now. you changed me into something great, something better. you made me stand up for myself, being brave to face the world. thank you. thank you for being my life tutor."

and that night on, we cuddled up, getting back to who we were once when we first dated. I mean, in a good way of course. we are thankful for each other for being the shoulders to lean onto.

thank you.

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BAAAA
I'M BACK POOKIES
I'm back to feed y'all for more ragapom. I'm sorry that I've been starving you guys for a long time😢
oh well, I just hope you guys enjoy this. see you on the next chapter!!