Forever And Always(Frerard)

Chapter 21: Cloudy With The Possibility of Love

CHAPTER 21:

-----Frank's POV-----

The next day, I sat Gerard down on the couch. I sat across the room from him. There was concern in his eyes, and it was pretty clear.

"Gerard, we need to talk. And I don't want you to talk until I'm done because this is really hard for me." 

My breathing was shallow and labored because I was so nervous. What if he hated me? What if he didn't want to date me anymore? Whatever. I was going for it.

"Look, Gee, I've never been in love. I don't know what it feels like and how they make it look in the movies seems like bullshit. As you know, ever since my mom died when I was 17, you and your family are all I had. Honestly, the relationship I have with you is the closest I've ever been with someone since my mom. That scares me, Gerard. A lot. I just... don't know if I love you. I don't know what it feels like..." Hot tears welled up in my eyes and I broke eye contact with the beautiful man in front of me.

While I stared at the ground trying to get my tear ducts under control, he crossed the room and crouched in front of me. His hand cupped my cheek, catching my tears as they ran down my pale face.

There was a long silence before he spoke. "Frank, I get it. I know it hurts to feel this way and I know you're confused and frustrated, but that's OK. I've only been in love once before, and it was scary as fuck. I didn't realize I was in love until about six months after I actually fell in love. It's normal."

I looked up to his face, taking in every detail. From his pronounced cheekbones to his lush, full lips. "Who?"

Gerard looked away. "Remember that Lindsey chick? From junior year? Her."

I nodded slowly. He was with her when I figured out that I had feelings for him.

He grabbed my chin and made me face him. I looked into his eyes, his deep, beautiful hazel-brown eyes. "I will never EVER pressure you into anything Frank, whether it be jumping off a waterfall with me or loving me. I know that I love you Frank, and I'll wait for you to fall in love with me, or for the day that you tell me that you'll never love me. No matter what, you'll always be my little Fronkeh. Always and forever."

We had decided that the always and forever thing would be our way of telling each other that no matter what ever happened, we'd love one another. And when those words that I'd heard a hundred times left his lips that day, they sent me reeling. I could see now that he really did love me and that he really did want nothing more than to be with me, and no one had ever done that for me before. It hurt me inside to know I was unsure of my feelings for him.

"Forever and always," I said slowly.  "Will you still be my boyfriend?"

He smiled softly. "Of course I will, Frank. Just keep me posted." I smiled back and leaned forward to connect our lips. I was a soft, pleasant kiss. I felt him smile into the kiss, which made me giggle. He pulled me on top of him so we were both on the living room floor kissing. Soon, we were both laughing so hard we had to break the kiss.

Of course, to ruin the moment, his phone rang. He dug it out of his skin-tight jeans. He stared at the front screen, which displayed the name of the caller for a few seconds before flipping it up and putting it to his ear.

"Hello?"

The voice on the other end was so loud that I could hear it. It was obviously altered with one of those voice changers. "Hello, Gerard."

He sat straight up, a scared look on his face. "Who is this?"

"You know who this is. Listen to me and listen good. You better watch your back, Way. And if you don't, I'll have your ass... AGAIN." The dial tone came over the other end of the speaker as Gerard shook like a leaf. He was obviously scared of whoever was on the end.

"Gerard...? Who was that?"

"I-... I have to go. I have to go now, Frank. I'll be back later." He got up and ran as quickly as he could out of my house, slamming the door behind him.

I sat around my house for the rest of the day, watching movies and reading comic books. The weather was cloudy and cold outside which fitted the mood set in my apartment after Gerard left. I just wanted him to explain to me what had happened on the phone.  

After a while, I got lost in my thoughts. I truly thought there was a possibility I'd fall in love with Gerard, and I sincerely hoped I would.

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This was a totally fluffy chapter because well I felt fluffy tonight. Tomorrow's chapter will be pretty centered on the song Sleep by My Chem, so if you like that song please be sure to check it out. Enjoy, my Cuties!!!

-CutiePie