union j fanfic: love or games?

part sixteen

thick tears were streaming down my face causing my vision to turn very blurred.

"JESS" someone shouted in the distance.

I couldn't tell who it was because they were so far away, but as they ran closer, I recognised the voice. It was Josh.

"Jess, why did you run here?" He panted as he rested his body against the swing frame.

"I just want to be a kid again Josh" I sobbed. "Remember when we were about seven, and me and you would always run away and come here for the day when our parents were having big parties and get togethers?"

Josh gave out a little smile for sympathy.

"When we didn't have any worries, when we had no one else but each other. When we could have a laugh and talk about our future.. and remember our dreams Josh?" I cried.

"When you always said you wanted to be a princess and wanted to get married with a big house and find your prince?" Josh laughed.

I giggled at the thought of how cringey it was that those were my exact words.

"Yes but remember yours?" I asked.

He picked me up off the swing and sat me back down on his lap.

"Of course" he replied.

"You wanted to be famous, have lots of money and sing for a career.. and now look at you Josh" I said, as a fear rolled down my cheek.

"Where are you going with this?" He asked.

"What I'm trying to say is that you won. You've had your dreams come true. You did it" I said. "But do you know what hurts?"

"What?" He asked softly.

"Your dreams have been made, mine never will. When you're out there singing, thousands of girls screaming your names, I won't matter anymore. I'll just be someone you used to know" I cried.

"Jess don't be so bloody silly" he said, lightly pushing my head into his chest. "You have been my best friend all my life Jess, no matter how big and famous I'll get, you'll always be my best friend".

I sniffed hard as I wiped away my tears.

"And you need to sort this George thing out, he's no good for you" Josh said.

I felt slightly sick as I heard those words.

"What why?" I asked. "Wait, I know why but why is he no good for me?".

"Jess he's messing with your head and I can't keep seeing you like this. I need to stay friends with him for the sake of union j but there's only so much I can take".

I said nothing but rest my head back into Josh's chest. He was right. No matter how much I loved George and how much I thought he was the guy of my dreams, this couldn't keep happening. It needed to stop.

*RING RING*

"Is that your phone or mine?" I asked.

"Yours" he said.

I jumped off of his lap and pulled my phone out of my pocket. George was ringing me.

"Who is it?" Josh asked.

"George" I sighed.

"Jess answer it" Josh demanded.

I pressed answer and placed the phone to my ear.

What do you want?

Jess where are you?

It doesn't matter where I am