union j fanfic: love or games?

part ninteen

Jess' POV

I woke up to the light shining through my window, it was Wednesday which meant I had only four days left until I had to go back to school.

I had last nights mascara still all over my face and half a bottle of vodka left on my bedside table. I drink very heavy when I'm depressed. I regret it in the morning but at the time, it seems like the right thing to do.

I was home alone. My mum was in work and my sister was, well, I don't know but she wasn't in.

I grabbed my phone and started to scroll through union j's tweets. George tweeted quite a lot saying how upset he was.

'Feeling so much better today, out shopping in Tudor Square if any girls wanna come see me;) G. Xx'

My heart sank. Why was I pushing him away? The person I loved with all my heart, the person that made me happy when no one else could.

I slowly got out of bed and wiped away my makeup. It was very early but I could not sleep. I slipped into a play suit and shoved my hair up into a high ponytail. It was the perfect morning for a long walk. It was very much needed, I needed to clear my head.

After making my way downstairs, slipping my white sandals on and grabbing a bottle of cold water, I made my way out of my street.

The sun was already shining brightly in the sky at such an early time. I slipped my ear phones in and started playing the album 'take me home' by one direction.

As I walked, I thought about George and what to do about the situation. All sorts of thoughts came and went. I couldn't think. I just wanted to sit down and cry.

When I reached the park, I sat down on a bench on the right side of the field and gulped down some water.

Tears started to roll down my face as I stared longingly at the floor.

I needed to do something about this. I couldn't keep getting upset thinking I wanted George back then declining his calls whenever he tried to contact me.

I knew I wanted him back. It got to the point where I didn't care what others thought. It was my relationship, no one else's.

I let out a sigh as I unlocked my phone and typed out a text to George.

'I'm really sorry I haven't replied to any calls, I've been thinking. You've hurt me but I've realised I love you and can't live without you:('

I slouched back down onto the bench and waited for a reply. He read the message but I had no text back. Getting frustrated, I decided to ring him as I was a very impatient person and hated having to wait.

Hello?

George why did you ignore me?

Well you've been ignoring me for days

No george, I had to have time to think

Alright so what do you want?

George why are you being like this?

Well I'm kinda busy

What with girls?

Yes actually

George, what is happening between us then?

By now, I had a tear rolling down my cheek. I got emotional so easy.

I think we should call it a day Jess

What?? George I thought you loved me. George please?

With that, the call ended and I was left heart broken on a bench. I put my head in my hands and cried until it was impossible to cry anymore. I didn't know what to do with myself or what to think. I felt sick.

I got up and began to walk at a quick pace towards my house.

"Are you ok dear?" An elderly woman pushing a pushchair asked, looking at me worriedly.

"Yeah I'm fine" I mumbled.

I reached home and collapsed onto the sofa. My head was pounding and suicidal thoughts were filling my brain. Yes some people would think it's stupid because it's only a boy, it's not as if your life's over, but it was George. I loved him more than anything and knowing he's already known and getting so much female attention was slowly killing me.

I rushed into the kitchen and poured myself a cold drink and sat back in the living room.

Flicking through tv channels, I found a channel that played all the old shows like kenan and kel, and zoey 101. It cheered me up so much as I saw and watched my childhood shows.

'(1) new text.. Josh'

'Hello, sorry about George this morning. Idk what's gotten into him, I think all the attention is messing with his head. Just want you to know that there aren't actually any girls with us, think he tweeted about that to get to you. Oh and Murron said to ring her! hope you're ok, ly xxx'

I replied to Josh then rang Murron. She told me to get ready because she was taking me out to get my nails done. She's so lovely. It really cheered me up to know that I have friends that are willing to take time out of their day to make sure I'm happy.

I quickly got myself ready. I changed into a white floral dress with a thick brown belt and brown sandals. I made myself some lunch before meeting Murron in town ready to get our nails done.

She greeted me with a hug as we entered the nail shop. It was empty bar one customer.

"Hello girls, if one of you would like to take a seat by me and another take a seat by Sara" a young, blonde haired woman smiled.

Murron and I sat down as the two young ladies began to do our nails.

"Jess are you ok now?" Murron said quietly.

"Not really if I'm honest, he wants to end it for good" I said.

"You're kidding right?" She asked.

"Nope, dead serious" I sighed.

"Wow, i'd hug you if I could" she gasped.

It took an hour for our nails to finish but in the end, they looked beautiful. I had them done bright pink with small diamonds on.

Murron and I sat in Starbucks for the rest of the afternoon. We spoke about Jaymi and Liv, but mostly George and how much of a knob he was being.

"Two weeks until the live shows start aint it?" Murron gasped.

"Oooo yay, and fame gets to mess with George's head even more" I said sarcastically.

"He's not that bad, come on, I'm sure this isn't the end of it all" she smiled.

"You don't understand, he really doesn't want to be with me" I snapped

We finished our drinks and made our way home. I arrived back at my house to Amy and Aidan who had kept me a McDonald's.

"Thought we'd surprise you" Aidan grinned as he handed me a brown McDonald's bag with food in.

"Ah thanks guys" I smiled as I took the food off Aidan and headed to my bedroom.

It was so warm so I stripped into my underwear and opened the window slightly. I turned my radio on and began to eat my McDonald's.

Maybe life was easier without George? Maybe me staying away from him was for the best, seeing as he was becoming 'mr famous arrogant boy'. Maybe it wasn't worth the hate and rumours.. Who was I kidding, I needed him more than anything.

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Once again, I apologise that I've only know posted this part. Honestly will start uploading more regular now that I'm coming to the end of this fanfic!

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