What ifi crytoomuch?

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Did you leave your house today?
Why did you leave your house today?
Could you leave your house today?
What the point if I just make more regrets
How to live as normal human being I could never know
Just sleeping
Staying quiet
Don't talk to me
I just feel guilty afterwards
I realized I forgot I can't care
Cuz then I'll get super anxious
And think of you all the time
I'm not normal
I hate for admitting that
I talk to myself and sing cuz I think if I do that people will see me and think I'm approachable
I'll smile
Act happy
BBut what if!
IdontknowwhatifsomeonehatesmewhatifidosomethingwrongWhatif!
I'm approachable?
But what if I make friends and they secretly hate me and what if I get caught up in all their problems what if I care too much.?
Am I happy? Approachable!?
I wanted that but what if I don't anymore
The idea of friends terrify me
I think about what if I don't care enough if I care too much if imloud too weird
Too much?
I'd
Rather
Cry
In
My room
Alone

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