"am i gone yet..."|| hyunlix angst

𝓜𝓲𝓻𝓻𝓸𝓻 🪞

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Felix POV:

dear diary.....𝓘 𝔀𝓪𝓷𝓷𝓪 𝓭𝓲𝓮 𝓫𝓾𝓽 𝓲𝓶 𝓼𝓬𝓪𝓻𝓮𝓭 𝓽𝓸 𝓲 𝓱𝓪𝓿𝓮 𝓷𝓸 𝓶𝓮𝓪𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓲𝓶 𝓾𝓼𝓵𝓮𝓼𝓼 𝓳𝓾𝓼𝓽 𝓪 𝓹𝓪𝓹𝓮𝓻 𝔀𝓲𝓽𝓱 𝓻𝓮𝓭 𝓼𝓽𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝓼 let me go.....please i want to go.....but jisung will cry i never want him to cry he's my best friend i won't matter maybe i will if i'm gone  𝓹𝓵𝓮𝓪𝓼𝓮 𝓬𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓶𝓮. 

bye diary.....

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it was late i put my diary away and held my stomach i was only here in this apartment to get away but now i'm home i'm in my old house with my deadbeat dad and still have a father who-

then i heard a great smash 

my dad barged into my room made me stand up and pinned me against the wall he slumped against me as i said " NO! STOP"

he didn't care he kissed me i could taste his alcohol ick! i hated it so much he took of my pants and boxers and pressed against my crotch i shivered in pain my waist bruised if you looked in the 𝓶𝓲𝓻𝓻𝓸𝓻. you could see his huge hands around my waist he grabbed my hair and pulled-and-pulled my hair he took off his belt and...slam-slam-slam 

you could feel my body shaking and shivering ....

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i woke up in the morning feeling numb and stiff i was wobbly and shaky help i let out a ouch!, i picked up a baggie hoodie with some baggy jeans still shaking i picked up my sheets that were wet and sticky ew! i put them in the washer and went upstairs , it was good my dad was at work i didn't even want to go to school i picked up my messenger type bag i picked up my cracked phone and walked to school phew i made it out 

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i put on a smile and headed inside...

(cliffhanger ! 🥹)

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hi lovely's i just wanted to shout out to @143straykids123 please follow her she is really lovely and nice (idk if it's a they/them or anything but i support ❤️‍🩹) i'm sorry for the cliffhanger but i'm tired as fwackkkkk ily sm