Black Widow

34.

We did as Lando promised, we went on a boat together.

Not only us though, his best friend Max came along, together with a few others of his friends.

It wasn't what I preferred, I thought it would be just the two of us, but he showed me that we could still have our time together even with everyone around.

No sneaking around, not pretending as if we weren't dating.
We just did whatever we would normally do.

We relaxed together, jumped in the sea together. We just had a lot of fun.

Exactly what I needed.

He made me forget all about Shirley, Nick and the whole Black Widow business.

I wore a bathing suit, to cover most of my scars. My biggest scar was on my belly, but there were also some under my boobs and thighs.

So unfortunately, I couldn't cover up everything.

It was already late, we were laying on the boat together. Fully clothed because it was pretty cold.

"Did you enjoy yourself?" He asked, pulling me closer against his chest.

"Yeah I did, thank you so much" I snuggled up to him.

"So there's something I noticed.." he said, he let his hands brush against my legs, up to my thigh and brushed his thumb against my scar. "Where did you get these?"

I sighed, I knew this was coming. "Some of them liked to carve on me while abusing me"

He wanted to know, so I gave it to him, I wasn't gonna hide things anymore.

He was quiet for a while.

"Do you have others?" He spoke up, softly.

I grabbed his hand, put it under my shirt and put it on the scar on my belly. "They put glass in here, it almost killed me"

I guided his hand higher, until we almost reached my boobs. His breath got heavier, he probably thought I was gonna put it on my boobs.

Not yet baby, not yet.

I stopped under my boobs, revealing my other scar. "And here they enjoyed cutting me with their knife"

He sighed deeper, pulling me closer against him. "I am so sorry that happened to you"

"It's okay, it's over and they got what they deserved"

But not all of them did. I stopped because of Lando, but there were still 2 who didn't get what they deserved.

One of them was the worst of them all. He was the one who put glass in me, who was the leader.

And I let him off the hook. It didn't feel right, but I had to get over it.

Lando and I got back home, got showered to get rid of the salt, changed into something comfortable and cuddled on the couch together.

He was great, he was exactly what I wanted. He was exactly what I needed to regain some trust in guys again.

And maybe it was too soon, it was definitely too soon, but I said it. Without thinking about it.

"I love you" I mumbled.

Sloppy, Bonnie, so damn sloppy.

I thought he would back away, think it was way too soon for that nonsense.

But he didn't, instead he pulled me up with him and carried me to the bedroom.

He laid me down, looked down at me with a smile. You couldn't fake that look on his face. He didn't need to say it back.

I knew he loved me too.

Even with my past, even with my flaws, even with my damn scars.