Black Widow

37.

I was getting sick, I felt nausea coming up. It couldn't be Lando. It just couldn't be him.

"How do you know it was him?" I asked, leaning against the kitchen counter. I needed something to hold on to right now.

"It was his number. I saw the files, copied the number and Shirley identified it as Lando's number"

"Shirley and you worked on this together? Behind my back?" I snorted. Why wouldn't they tell me? It annoyed the shit out of me.

"Yes, you were too busy living in your fairytale lovestory" he answered the question in my head.

I was too busy snuggling up to the person who ratted me out.

"Why would he save me if he called the police?" I said. It just didn't make any sense.

"Who says he was there to save you?"

"What are you saying?" I narrowed my eyes.

"What if, he called the police, went there to see if you got caught but you got out and saw him? He didn't have a choice other than to 'save' you" he said.

"It just doesn't make any sense" I shrugged.

"Why? Because he made you fall in love with him? That's why you think it isn't him?" He chuckled. "But you think it's the girl who worked with you for seven years or so?"

Well yeah, pretty much.

Why would he do that though? Why would he cuddle up to me, kiss me and have sex with me if he wanted to report me?

If he wanted to rat me out? If he wanted me locked up?

It just didn't make any sense. He wouldn't dare that. He wouldn't do that.

"What are you gonna do?" Sin asked, tilting his head at me.

"I don't know" I mumbled. "Nothing, until I figure out what to do"

"You're just gonna pretend as if nothing happened?"

I shrugged. "Yeah, for now and you are also gonna do nothing, okay?"

"Fair enough" he sighed.

Instead of going back to Lando's apartment, I went to my own.
I couldn't be around him right now.

I wanted to trust him, but maybe Sin was right. I didn't know him very long. Didn't know him very well either.

And I fell for him completely, because he always had the right things to say, he always did the right thing to calm me down.

I promised I wouldn't do this anymore. I promised myself that I was done with the Black Widow.

I grabbed my diary and flipped through it.

So many fuckers that deserved exactly what they got. Because they abused women, children.

I promised myself that I wouldn't kill anyone who doesn't deserve it and I still wanted to keep that promise.

But rats definitely deserved to be tortured.

Two could play this mindfuck game.

Lando ❤️

Where u at sunshine?
Still at your brother's?

No, at my place

Oh, you don't wanna come to mine?

Not really

Should I come to yours then?

I wanna be alone tonight

Why?

You know why

I don't
Enlighten me please

Come to mine then
I will enlighten you