Black Widow

29.

"Should you be eating this?" I asked as I pointed at the pizza in front of us.

"Probably not" he said, took a slice of pizza, put it in his mouth and winked at me.

I rolled my eyes and laughed. "I just don't want to force pizza down your throat"

"There are worst things to force down my throat, I guess" he shrugged.

We were sitting on the floor, in front of the couch. Two pizzas in front of us and a movie playing on the tv.

It was such a boring, normal night, and I could definitely get used to it.

No killing, no blood, no dicks in front of my face.

Even though I wouldn't mind seeing Lando's dick in front of me.

Okay focus Bonnie, focus.

"You're being pretty quiet this weekend, are you okay?" He asked, finishing his slice of pizza.

I sighed a little, turned my body to him. It was time to tell him.

Not everything though, I don't think he was ready for everything.

"There's something I need to tell you" I said.

"Okay" he also turned to me. The tv was just background noise now.

"The reason why I pushed you away is not because I don't like you, or don't have time for you" I started explaining.

I sighed. I never told someone my story, except for Shirley. It took even a few years before I told Sin.

And now I was telling Lando.

"Eight years ago, I got sexually assaulted by a few guys, so that's why I get weird when people touch me, especially men"

He looked at me, his eyes widened a little and I noticed that he didn't know what to do.

He wanted to hug me, but quickly decided against it.

"And you're the first one that I actually want to get close to, that I want to kiss, hug, cuddle, and everything" I said which made him smile immediately.

"So you like me huh?" He raised an eyebrow and smiled even wider.

"Yeah yeah don't start acting weird now" I waved it off which made him laugh.

But he didn't say it back.

He took my hand softly and pulled me on the couch, next to him, in his arms.
He already knew these touches were fine, I enjoyed them.

"I am sorry for what happened to you, Bon" he said softly. "I didn't know, I wouldn't have touche-"

"I know Lando" I interrupted him. "I didn't tell you to make you feel bad, quite the opposite actually"

He didn't reply, he didn't need to, he just held me a bit closer and kissed the top of my head.

And we laid down together, watching the movie in silence. He was letting his fingers brush against my arm but he wasn't saying anything.

I told him I like him, that I want to kiss and cuddle and whatnot.

And he just says nothing?

Was he disgusted or something? It was definitely a mistake telling him.

I was so fucking glad that I didn't tell him about my other secret.

We finished watching the movie and got up, I got ready for bed and so did he.

And then I went to my own room, my separate room because I was sure he didn't want me with him.

"What do you think you're doing?" He frowned, leaning against the doorframe. "Uh-sleeping?"

"You're in the wrong bed" he said calmly, nodded quickly at his room. "Oh am I?" I smiled.

"You definitely are, sunshine" he held his hand out which I gladly took.

We cuddled together in his bed. My head on his chest, until he made me look at him, his hand softly against my cheek. "If it wasn't clear yet, I like you too"

Shirley 🖤

So, is it happening tonight?

Not tonight
I am busy

Busy doing what?
Don't forget why you're there

I am with Lando
Can't talk right now

God
Don't get soft now
When are u gonna do it then?
I have to prepare too

The police is here
Better to postpone
I didn't have time to read his case either

The police is everywhere
We're not postponing

Fine
Tomorrow evening
8pm
Be ready then

Ok
Focus Bonnie
Focus
You're being so sloppy lately