My Side of the Story Vol. I

131.) Soon Find Out

I wonder if you dream about our first kiss. I think about it all the time because I know I'm out of practice. On top of that I very much don't like to be touched. Sometimes the thought of it becomes too much. Not because of you, honestly it's from past trauma. Honestly it would take many hours to get through all the details of the drama. Because best believe I hate to open up. The walls are up and I don't trust my luck not to get me fucked up. So I lock myself in and make all the safe comments. But you keep reacting and responding to all of my sentiments. As I stare at my phone once again so confused. You might be doing this on purpose, maybe even find yourself amused. I imagine a smirk on your face, maybe even a shy smile. Maybe one of these days I'll have the courage to ask you to stay for a while. But then I get choked up, then I get nervous. For a reason I can't name, when I'm with you I'm breathless. But then I think about a time when we're hanging out. Maybe it becomes something more, hopefully we'll soon find out.