I'm not saying I hate breathing, I just don't like living.
How can you be happy here when you know that there's something better?
How does it feel to be grateful to live? To not want to die...
I don't know what that feels like.
It feels like I'm constantly struggling, running out of air, intoxicated, drowning, suffocating, loosing, or just no feeling at all. Blank. They...
They call this a "phase"
I'm in a phase.
My feeling, no feeling....it's a phase.
My whole life is a "PHASE".
When will this phase be over, well that's just it. It's not a phase.
I'm unfixable.
I'm sure. I'm positive.
This "phase" it's my life, it's I ...as a person.
My mind is torn all day. It's being pulled every direction. I feel so high yet so deep down, at the same moment.
I smile but I'm crying inside.
How can this be a phase?
Stop saying.
Stop.
This is NOT a phase.
I'm slowly dying.
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I've never lived, I'm just surviving ~ Mind Of Mia
