Paraphernalia {Perrentes}

Basket Case

Mike

"Vic slow down. Wait." I yelled at my brother. It was the end of the day and we were running home from school to see the last of SpongeBob. "No. What if it's over when we get home?" He asked as he continued running. I sighed and tried my best to catch up with him. We finally reached the front door, the both of us ran in the house and ran into the living room. Only to see our dad passed our and beer bottles everywhere. Vic sighed and walked away. I just stood there, looking at the person I call dad. "Mike, come on. Lets go before he wakes up." Vic whispered to me. I just shook my head. "No." I told him, he sighed once more and grabbed my backpack strap. I yelled and yelled until he let go. Only to realize that I woken the monster from his sleep.

"What are you doing?" He asked walking towards me. I shook my head and looked down at my shoes. "Look up and answer me." He yelled, I did as he told me to do and then shook my head once more. "Mike, just walk away please?" Vic whispered to me, I nodded this time and turned around. Before I could walk away, he yanked my arm to pull me back to him. "Don't you ever walk away from me do you understand?" He asked bitterly. I nodded and waited for him to let me go. But he didn't.

He just stared at me, with disgust. "You have her eyes." Was all he said before he slapped me and then let me go. I couldn't help but cry and run to my room.

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I continued to stare out the window, as tears fell down my face. I have no one left, and that hurt. I sighed as I looked around the cafeteria. Everyone was laughing or talking to their friends. And then there's me and Tony. We didn't talk to one another or to anyone else at that, or maybe that's just him.  We liked to keep to ourselves. And  maybe that's why I developed a little crush on him. He was so mysterious and that interest me.

"Mike, you have a visitor?" Ms. Gunn yelled from the door. I gave her a questioning look and got up from the windowsill. I made my way over to her and we walked to the visitor room. I looked around to see the one person that I'd never thought I see. I sighed as I sat down across from the now older man. "You look better." He said, I just chuckled. "No I don't. This is what I have to live with for the rest of my life." I shot back. He looked down at his thumbs and then back at me.

"Mike, I am your fath-." I cut him off before he could say anything else. "No. You don't have the right to say that to me. You were never there when I needed you. When I was being bullied or when I got depressed. You always hit me and told me that I was a disgrace. You hate me and I hate you." I finished as I wiped stray tears from my face. "Mike, I don't hate you." He tried to explain. "Don't give me that bullshit. You told me every chance that you got. You made it very clear that I was the one that killed her. I didn't get to know her. Do you know how much that hurt? Do you know that I needed you?" I cried out.

He sighed and grabbed my hand. I sighed and yanked my hand from his embrace. I got up and began to walk away. "Tell Vic that if he doesn't plan on coming soon. Don't come at all." I bitterly told him as I made my way back to the cafeteria.  As I was walking in, Tony was walking out with Ms. Gunn. We looked at each other. I smiled slightly and his face turned red instantly. I couldn't help but laugh at his innocents.

We haven't really talked since the day I kissed him. It was fine with me. He's just playing hard to get. I sat back down at the windowsill. I looked at all the people walking in and out. All the tears coming from mothers faces and dad trying to comfort them. The happy faces of younger and older siblings finally getting to see their brothers or sisters. I smiled slightly. Then one thing caught my eye. My dad was still here, but he wasn't alone.

In fact he was with two people. A women which I assume is his girlfriend. To his right was my older brother. I felt tears swell up in my eyes. His hair was longer than the last time I seen him. He had a nose ring. He grew a couple of inches. But I have a feeling that I'm taller than him. I sighed and got up once more. I walked passed the visitor room to see Tony talking to someone. His visitor had chestnut brown hair and tattoos everywhere. Tony gave him a look that I knew all to well. More tears fell down my face. I couldn't help but feel upset.

I continued the journey back to my room and cried. I cant take it anymore. This place. My life. It was all to much. I cried and cried. I sat down on my bed and tried to calm down, but nothing happened. I sighed and got up, tears still falling down from my face. I walked to the wall that was across from me and punched it. I was so angry. I couldn't help but feel worthless, useless. It all hurt. I slid down the wall and put my head in my face.

"I'm never going to get better." I said aloud. Nothing was going to change and when I get out here, I am going to end all the pain.

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