Paraphernalia {Perrentes}

Hard To Please

Here is a bonus chapter that I have promised you guys .

Third Person

They say you cant fall in love twice. That it is physically impossible. Once you fall in love for the first time, your second love will never compare to the first, because you can fall in love with that person. But that isn't true. For Michael Christopher Fuentes, it was the total opposite. He has fallen in love once, twice, and thousands of times after that. He has fallen in love with the same person everyday for the past 3 years. This special person who has his heart? Ceaser Antonio Soto Perry. Or Tony for short.

These two boys have been through so much together. From living in a hospital for troubled teens, to dealing with Tony's cancer.

But is it possible to fall out of love?

That is the question that everyone wants to know. Sure people become unhappy and they don't want what they have any longer. But when you break up with a long term boyfriend or girlfriend, do you stop loving them? Do you just forget about what you had, what you've longed for, for so many years?

No, because in all reality, you would fight. You fight for the ones you love. So why did Mike stop fighting? What made him give up on the one person that really cared about him? What changed?

Tony

Seeing Mike after tour was amazing. The way his eyes shined in the moon light, to the way his skin sparkled in the daylight. There was no doubt that I loved him, and that I will never stop loving him. But sometimes, it is hard to please him. It was like he changed while I was gone.

It hurt knowing that I didn't make him happy anymore. I questioned everything I did. Like what I could do to make him better, or what I could do to get him to talk to me. But nothing. Nothing worked. And that is what scared me the most.

On occasions, I would call Lynn or Dr. Iero, to see if there was anything that I could do about Mike, but they just told me the same thing. They just explained that I have to let him get out of the depression that he is in. But I couldn't do that. I couldn't just sit back and let the man that I loved go through so much pain.

I couldn't go back on tour, knowing that he was here, back in California hurting. But after a while, it became to much of a burden. A burden that I never thought about loosing. A burden that would soon turn into the regret that I never needed. The burden that I prayed would be back in my arms once more.

"Mike, I need you." I sobbed as I sat in front of the tomb stone. His name was engraved at the top, and then his birthdate and his final resting date below that. December 14, 1984 - December 14, 2015. 30 years. Was that enough for someone to live? Was it too soon for him to leave me behind? Was I being selfish?

Why. That was the only question and or statement running through my mind. I never knew why he left, but his note explained it all.

I was just to hard to please.

And now he is gone. And maybe. Just maybe. I can be with him once again.

Only because you never stop fighting for the ones that you love.

{Song for part: Hard To Please (Acoustic) - State Champs}

Now this is officially the end of Paraphernalia. It is wonderful knowing that you guys actually like my shitty writing, but this is the end my lovely Secksy Goats.

Also, I know I've said this before, but I am currently working on a Calum Hood fanfic, Nostalgia I ask that you guys read it.

But other than that. I love you all.