Love Procedure: SOOBIN & SOHEE

17: nights II

I was quite intrigued from the offer, I've never had sex outside the office. Maybe I just need something to cool my mind.

As san drove, he seemed nervous almost.
"Should we save it for tonight?"
He looks at me biting his lip, I look a mess from what Yeonjun did to me. Plus it's still bright out.

I sigh,
"Sure, do you want to go to the movies then dinner?"

"So, a date?"
San shyly mutters, breaking eye contact, fixed back on the road.

"Yes... a date."
My hand playfully reaches for his thigh.

"Sohee!"
He jitters and I pull my hand away,
"Okay, okay!~"

"It's been a year.. what truly is our relationship?"

The question was bound to come, and truthfully our relationship is nothing to me.
"Nothing special. Get your head out the gutter."
I flick his head as we make our way to the movie.

"I know I shouldn't have asked."
He rubs his neck regretfully, already knowing the answer.

He was quite tense as we selected the movie, I hold his hand. Staring back at him, despite a year of sexual activeness he still gets shy around me.

If only I went on dates with Soobin.

We grab a seat all the way at the back of the movies, we didn't care what movie it was. No popcorn, just movie.

I spread my legs, I wore a skirt today. He knew the drill. I looked at him with lust, this was what I needed.

He slid his hand over the chair, creeping it up under my skirt higher into my inner thigh. He was tense once again.

"Stop."
He flinched.

"That's enough, I'll save it for tonight."
I grab his hand and we walk out the movies, what a nice start. It was my first time being considerate instead of indulging in my own selfish desires. But I don't care, why should I care about San?

I don't anyway. I don't think he has feelings for me either, he promised he'd be there for me. He's fulfilling his promise.

"Miss.. we didn't even get to watch the movie."
He stutters, why is he so shy and tense? It pisses me off.

"We don't need to. Lets just go check in the hotel and get this finished with."
I drag him along to the car, his head down with zero confidence. It all pisses me off.

Why can't you guys all like the same robots and do what you're told and given.

...

We made it inside our hotel room, he laid down on the bed and watch me undress.
Watched me pounce on top of him, you look tired. I am too, suck it up. You made a promise, help me.

As I hop on top, jumping up and down he huffs each time. It doesn't feel the same at all.. how many times do I have to fuck to remember his feeling?

"You can't keep living like this.."
San's voice cracks, tears streaming down his face from ecstasy. A mix of pleasure and pity in his voice. He stretches his hand out to fix the hairs in my face.

I keep on jumping and ignoring him, I'll just keep moving harder. Smacking louder.
"Would he want you living like this?"
Let me tune out San.. my hands reach for his neck. His dick gets harder in me.

"You're no different than Yeonjun. Not realizing what you had until you lost it.. Always finding a somewhat decent replacement to the real gem.. Always coming back for more yet not appreciating it until it left.. Are you gonna force it to come back?"
His voice was groggy, raspy as my tears dripped on his face, my hands grasped onto his neck, my hips stopped moving. He was still inside me.

"Shut up.. why are you telling me this now.."
I'm still crying, each tear drop fell on his face. He just stared at me, admiring a beautiful painting.

Don't look at me like that. Is this what being loved feels like? I thought I felt it with Yeonjun, I definitely felt it with Soobin. But who are you to talk San? You're not the man I want.

But why do I fuck you relentlessly to the point I forget myself? You're just a toy. Not even a man. You have no dignity at all.

Don't compare me to Yeonjun.
...
"Yeonjun-ah!"
I shouted towards him, the school bell rang.

I remember vividly, his eyes looking at me, you looked at me as if I were your favourite. I was the only girl in the world, you treated me like I were your girlfriend. I hated it but loved it. I remembered everything.

Feeding you, late night calls, studying, ranting about family problems, more importantly your touch.

I remembered up to how you get bored so quickly. You get bored when things give you too much attention. Was it me?

You gave me up a long time ago. Did you find out I loved you through thick and thin?

Sometimes I think about it late at night, it keeps me awake. I wanted to know who you were sleeping with, I wanted to know who held you close. How it wasn't me.

"Maybe you're not like Yeonjun, maybe we're similar."
San coughs out a few words as my grip loosens and my tears start to lessen, drying up on his face.

How are we similar?
"Can never get what we want."
He smiles at me, it wasn't a happy one, more of a sympathetic way. All that cheesy crap.

I slap him,
Why did I? He's right. No one gets what they want truly.
"You talk too much. Serve your purpose."
I get off him and put back on a robe, leaving the hotel room for a second.

I held my panties in my hand without realizing, oh well.
I needed time to catch my breath, I can't stare at Yeonjun or San right now.

Although San gets me most it's quite scary.
I look up and see,
"S-Soobin."
My voice cracks and my eyebrow twitches, I drop my panties from my hand and my eyebrows furrow immediately. My mouth creaked a frown, my heart pumped and jittered so fast, the words were scrambling out my throat.

I can't move.
What are you going to do now Soobin? Are you going to leave me like Yeonjun?
Please come looking for me and regret what you left behind.

But, he walked past me. My heart broke. I couldn't peep a word, I didn't even turn around to see him walk past me. It's been a year, you went abroad. Did you find a girlfriend?

A flinch to hear the door click open behind me, San's big hands wrapped around my waist and he kissed my cheek. Nuzzling against my neck, his other hand slides up to cover my eyes. Seducing me.

"Let's finish this night..."
I surrendered falling into his arms.

. . .
I woke up an hour later, another nightmare about losing Soobin. Huffing, I look to my side to see San sleeping peacefully beside me. It wasn't that late, we were just tired. I smiled to see San looking adorable, comfortable as he nuzzled against my hanf