Love Procedure: SOOBIN & SOHEE

21: butterfly

"Where's Sohee!?"
Yeonjun yells at San as he took a hard backhand to the face.

San holds his ground.
"She's gone, she's happy now."
If San had to describe it, it's like a beautiful moment. Almost like a butterfly flying away, free.

"Shut up.. she needed me! She only loved me and only devoted her attention to me! Don't tell me that bastard found his way back? I thought we got rid of him."
Yeonjun threw a glass vase in rage. Throwing a tantrum over a single girl he had no romantic feelings for. But why did he feel this way?

"You don't realize what you had until you lost it."
San clenches his fists.

.. Yeonjun stood silent.
"Just get out."
San listens to the command obediently. Yeonjun sighs frustrated and sits down looking at the window. A butterfly passes by.

"How annoying."
He scoffs.

Everything floods through his mind, all the memories of Sohee.

'Sohee.. she's beautiful. Perfect and flawless. She excels in many things, when I first met her, I was quite jealous. But getting to know her, she was cool. Our backgrounds weren't any different.

High expectations were what we faced, I admired how strong she was. Maybe I could've been the older brother she could lean on. When I approached her, she was quiet and coy yet also tough on the outside.

It was almost, cute. The more time I spent with her the more I admired her. She laughs at all my jokes, all the small things and she made me feel more better about myself.

She wasn't also just cool, she was funny. She was a whole package. The way she carried herself, I couldn't ever think of her as anything more than a friend... because I was afraid she was better than me. Did I mix a small crush for admiration? Is this why my heart feels uneasy?

There was then a distance, it was her that put it up. What was that? It annoyed me. So, I got bored and found Chaeyoung. I liked Chaeyoung for her cuteness, she made my ego boost. She was all face. Nothing else.

I didn't get bored of her until I saw Sohee again 10 years later. Sohee is the definition of independent beautiful woman. A goddess.

Sohee you showed me temptation. I wanted more from you when I saw you again.'

Yeonjun regrets. It's too late now. As the butterfly flies away, it wont come back. I had one chance to catch it, now it's gone.

"I regret leaving you alone for 10 years. You should've told me earlier how you felt. Now I feel like shit."
Yeonjun scoffs to himself.

Mr. Kim has passed a couple months after they had gotten married, Yeonjun feels powerless yet he has so much power. He can't force love. He'll just feel shittier than he already is.

He can have all the riches in the world, but can't have a treasure like Sohee.