Scared Love

Chapter 7

I lazily open my eyes.  I look around and realise I'm in Matt's room.  His pillow smells exactly like him.  I smile and turn around and I don't find him besides me.  I hear water in the bathroom and I know Matt is showering.  I look at the time on the clock that's on Matt's drawer.  It's five in the morning.  He wakes up so early.  That's why I never see him in the morning.  I hear the water being turned off and I shut my eyes.  I hear small movements as he changes and later the bedroom door closes.  I quickly get up and rush into the hallway. 

"Matt wait!" I shout and he stops in his tracks and turns.  " What? " his face cold. My right foot scratches my left ankle, one habit I do whenever I'm nervous. "I was wondering if you wanted to talk about last night." I look away.  " What is there to talk about?" he asks.

" I don't know about yesterday I guess.  The way we kissed and the sex and everything." I flush at what I just said.  " It was just sex and kissing Ella,  everyone does it." My heart drops when he says that.  His face doesn't show any emotion.  I can't move and this room seems to be small and I can't breath. He turns and gets into the elevator.  The elevator door closes as we look at each other. 

I ran as fast as I can to my room, I manage to hold in my tears until I get inside my room and shut the door.  I slide down the door as I break into sobs.  How could I be so stupid?  Just because he was nice to me last night I got it into  my head that what? He would be a faithful and loyal husband to me? I laugh through my sobs at how stupid and naive I am. It was all an act and he fooled me to get into my pants and I let him. 

"You're so sexy Ella." he says. 

The words repeat in my head.  I take a deep breath and get up.  Images of Matt kissing me keep flashing in my head.  I take my toiletry bag and go to the bathroom to take a shower, maybe it will help.  The warm water flows down my body.  I close my eyes and take a deep breath to clear my head.  I do my hair and decide to just wear mascara on my eyes only.  I wear a floral imprinted dress.  I leave my room and find Sarah in the kitchen. 

Did she hear me and Matt earlier? 

" Morning Rosella. " She smiles.  "Morning Sarah." I sit on the chair in front of the counter.  "I'm sorry I was late this morning.  I had to drop off my daughter at school because John had to leave early with Mr Walker. " she explains.  Oh thank god she wasn't here.  " No it's fine I understand." she offers me water and I take it.  " Mr Walker didn't have his breakfast though." she tells me.  I don't think Matt is ever hungry, he's mostly focused on his work and it's rare to find him eating or chewing anything.  I know he hurt my feelings earlier but maybe he can see that I just want to be his friend by bringing him food to work. 

" Can you put it in a food container and I can go and give him at work." I tell Sarah.  "Aww that would be so nice of you." her smile grows.  She puts the food in a container. I grab my purse and go to the garage.  My face drops when I don't see the mustang where it's usually parked.  The palm of my hand gently hits my forehead.  My car is at that stupid club.  I had forgotten about it.  After Matt saved me we got into his car. I guess he also forgot about it. And when I think about it how did he know which club I was at? Would he mind if I take another car? Hell no this time he will bury me alive and I don't want that. 

I go back inside and luckily Sarah is no longer in the kitchen.  I get into the elevator.  I reach the main floor and find John parked outside wiping the car. 

"Morning John. " he turns his attention to me.  " Morning Rosella. "

" John I was wondering if you could drop me off at Matt's workplace.  I need to drop him off his breakfast since he left early today." he opens the door for me before answering.  "No problem Rosella."