Requested: no
Type: Angst
Ships: None
Au: Sides
Prompt: Roman reflext on what janus said to him and what he has said and done in the past to the others.
Warning contains: crying?
If you can't handle or don't like any of these please don't read.
Please let me know if I missed any triggers out.thank you
No one's p.o.v
Roman lay on his bed not a care in the world, he had come back a few hours ago from doing some work in the imagination so now he was just relaxing befoer he has to do his other jobs for Thomas befoer the others got on his case.
Roman sighed and sat up, he caught a glimpse of himself in his mirror that was not too far from his bed, but befoer he had even seen himself he saw
"Remus?" Roman spoke out thinking his twin was messing with him again
"Damn it remus, just come out already" Roman waited for a reply but his reflection looked like him
'Roman thank God you don't have a mustache, otherwise between you and Remus I wouldent know who the evil twin is' Janus' voice echoed in his head
His right eye started to feel the phantom pain of when Logan had thrown a paper ball at it, he lifted a hand to his eye and tried to rub the pain away but it wasn't working out well.
'Janus pfft what are you a middle school librarian, it's a stupid name' he heard himself laugh
'Nerdy wolverine!'
'Vomity central!'
'Bananaconda!'
'Quiet you, jerky mcjerkface, im too busy brainstorming to think of a harmful nickname'.....a harmful nickname? He did say that....right all the nicknames he'd given the others were harmful he felt his eyes burn with tears but refused to let them out
'Stop roman, only if he wants too' this time he heard Thomas' voice...he remembered this when they all turned into puppets, this also made him think of when he forced the others to sing his version of the 12 days of Christmas.
He felt so bad for forcing them to do that..
'Pump the breaks princey!' he heard the voices of Patton, Logan, Virgil and Thomas shout at him
He then saw his reflection change from him to remus
'It's a little like looking into a fun house mirror, but instead of a giant head or like long legs and a tiny torso, it shows you everything you don't want to be' he felt the tears roll down his cheek as he looked away from the mirror
How could he say that about his own brother....his twin.
He never ment to hurt his brother or the others or his host. He hadn't realised how horrible he had been to all of them. He placed a hand over his mouth to stifle his sobs, his body shook with sadness and regret over everything.
Sure the comments were made years ago but the realisation of what he had said and that it was still online made him sick to his stomach.
He wished he could go back in time and stop his past self from saying those things. All of these things make him the evil twin
He turned to look at his mirror again and still saw that it was remus with tears falling down his face and a hand iver his mouth instead of his own reflection.
Maybe he is just like him.
