Awantikaditya - A Story Of Love ,Lust And Revenge

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After a few days

Awantika POV

A few days have passed and I am still confused whether to tell Aditya about Abhiraaj or keep my mouth shut.
A part of me wants to tell him everything but another knows that it will cost Abhiraaj his life.
I know that Aditya's situations and conditions made him the way he is but I cannot deny that he is a ruthless man.
Now that things are getting normal between us I don't want to ruin it.
Also, in my heart, I feel as if he is hiding something from me.
I know that he likes me now and he indirectly confessed that he loves me and cares for me but still he keeps his distance from me.
It feels as if we are struck in a phase.
He just kisses me on my forehead, lips and sometimes breasts. He puts me in his arms and sleeps but he isn't doing anything that was written in those books that I have read.
I have tried to talk about it but he always makes some excuses.
I feel as if he doesn't want me. He is keeping his distance from me. He doesn't want to make me his wife officially.
Why are you doing this Aditya?
What are you hiding?
Should I trust you?
Should I open up with you?

I heard some steps of the servants and I immediately came out of my thoughts

It was Jyoti
She came with a lot of jwellery and clothes

"Rani ji. Bua ji has sent these for you"

"For me?"

"Jiii". She ordered me to make sure that you wear each one of them "

A smile appeared on my face because of her gestures. She is like my mother. She always tries to protect me and she cares about me

I asked them to put it in a safe place.

After that I went to Harshita.

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Harshita chamber.

"Didi, you are finally here. I was thinking about you"

"Are you? I thought you were thinking about dewar ji."

"No. Why would I think about him ?"

"He will be your husband in a few days so I don't think you need more reasons "

She blushed

"Didi. I...I...."

"What is it Harsha? "

"I wanted to ask you something but I am feeling embarrassed"

"You don't have to hasitate or feel embarrassed. I am your sister. You can say anything to me "

"I wanted to ask you something"

"What is it ? "

"Actually....I am ....."

"Come on Harsha. Tell me na. Don't be shy "

"Promise me that you will not make fun of me "

"Okay,  I promise. Now tell me !"

"Didi. A few days back  I read some of the  books. The ones which are read by women who are about to marry"

Awantika gulped and blinked.

"I read a few of them.....and...I am a bit confused and scared"

"Confused? Why confused? I don't think there's anything to be confused about. Everything is written in detail "

"I know but it feels weird and I am just scared".
I am scared that it will hurt me !"

"I can understand your worry Harsha"

"Yes and that is why I wanted to ask you about it. I mean I wanted to ask you if it hurt you, how did you felt.
I just want to know everything. I want to be prepared "

Awantika gulped blinked and looked at her with her wide open eyes

"I know I shouldn't be asking this. I apologise didi. I shouldn't have said that"

"It's okay. Your fear is justified. "

"Then can you tell me?"

Awantika hasitantly laughed

How can I tell you something which I haven't experienced till now. If Aditya would have just did something...I would have guided you.

This thought occurred in her mind

"Didi "
"Didi"

Awantika came out of her thoughts

"Yes yes...I am listening"

"Tell me. "

"Do you love Vijay? "

Harshita looked at Awantika in shock

"Why are you asking me this suddenly?"

"Answer me ?"

"I....I....think... I do "

"Does he loves you? "

"I don't know."

"Then find it. If he loves you then it will not hurt. You will feel good, safe, secured peaceful."

"What about you? "

" What about me?"

"Do you love jija ji and does he love you? "

"Do you know Harsha there's a thin line between hate and love.
When we first met . We hated each other. We got married for revenge. That hate, disguist, irritation , frustration, doubt made us live closer to  each other. We kept an eye on each other. We followed each other, and we found each other. Soon before we realised , we crossed that thin line of hatred."

Awantika looked at Harshita and her mouth was wide opened in shock.

Awantika cleared her throat and stood up

"You ask too many questions"
You should prepare for your departure.
You are going to Pratapkila in a few days"

She nodded

Awantika left the chamber.

She came out and took a few deep breaths
How can I say something like that in front of her.
What is wrong with you awantika.
I hope she doesn't tell all this in Pratapkila.

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In the Evening

After attending and listening to the problems of women's department awantika decided to go to the library
She went there and grabbed some books.
Suddenly her eyes went on a red book on the restricted area

She looked here and there and slowly took the book and looked at the cover

A female was made on the book. It was quite unusual because in most of the books men pictures are made

She opened the books and read a few lines
She immediately closed it and froze for a moment.
It is different. Different from other books
It doesn't talk about intercourse but about how to attract men
It talks about gestures, body language , speech
Is this a sign?
Should I take it, read it and use it on Aditya?
No no. It will be not good for me to do all these things.
But he is my husband and he seems to know many things. He is keeping distance from me. I want to know if he is doing this out of care or there's something in his mind
I will provoke him using this book and I will stop him if I get in trouble

Thank you God. You solved my problem.
Let's see Aditya. How much you can control yourself.

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