Awantikaditya - A Story Of Love ,Lust And Revenge

Is this love ?

I haven't felt anything like this before
It feels like my body has no energy left and it feels good.

I looked at him with my sleepy, relaxed eyes. He kissed me on my forehead and lied beside me.
I hugged him and I felt that I found the whole world.
At this point we don't have any misunderstanding, no questions , no explanation, no grudges. The only thing that was left between us is peace.

"Aditya."

"Hmm..."

"Do...do... You.... Love me?"

"What do you think? "

"Can't you give me an answer instead of asking questions for questions."

"Why do you ask questions whose answer you already know. "

"I get confused my behaviour. Sometimes you are so nice to me and sometimes I get suspicious of your action. Sometimes I feel that we don't have any secrets and sometimes I feel that you are a book of mystery and riddles which I won't be able to solve "

Aditya turned his turned towards me and said

"Is it bad to be mysterious and secretive?"

"People who love each other don't keep secrets with each other"

"Who told you that?"

"No one. I just know "

"People who love each other keep secrets from each other the most."

What?!

"Yes. Do you know why they do it?"

"No ..."

"Because some secrets can create distance between them and some mysteries are important to keep life and relationships interesting. Some secrets  don't need revelation, they are better to be forgotten "

"Are you keeping any secrets from me?"

He chuckled and said

"I thought all your energy is drained but I think I was wrong. Do you want to go for another round?"

Whatt???noo..... I blushed

There was silence between us but I cannot understand why did he not reply to my answer.
Is he hiding something from me?

"Aditya...."

"Hmm"

"Have you ...caught the men who were with Akshat?"

"We have caught some of them. Soon they will tell me about all of them and their hiding spots as well. "

"What....what will you do to them ?"

"When I was in the ashram, I was given a book. In that book I read 100 ways to torture a person. I always thought that it's too much and no person can bear that much pain. I never tried it on anyone before but now I am thinking of  practically apply it. "

I gulped in nervousness and thought of my cousin.
If he knows that my cousin is also involved in this , he will not think twice before killing him.

I was lost in my thoughts but suddenly he said

"What happened?. Where are you lost? "

"Nowhere... Just thinking about the book you read."

"Do you want to read it ?"

"No...why would I want to read something like that"

"To know your husband. To know at what extent I can go. To understand how I was raised and why it is hard for me to love."

The moment he said this my heart sank

Does it mean, he doesn't love me?

I looked at him and suddenly tears came in my eyes. I immediately looked down because I don't want him to look at me in this condition.

He sighed and said

"It's hard for me to love. I always used to think that until you came in my life. You brought colour in my black and white life. You were there with me even after knowing that I cannot be trusted. I didn't even realise that the things I did for hating you was not actually hate but my love for you
When I decided to marry you and when I left Ratna, I should have realised that it's not hate. I felt something different with you from the moment I saw you
When we first met I knew that it was not last.
I wanted to make your life hell but I couldn't. I am good at hurting people but when you came I realised that I can be a person who can put ointment to the pain.
I always thought of killing people and breaking relations but after meeting you I have someone whom I cannot loose. Whose life is precious to me. I can directly the whole world if it will make you happy. I am ready to sacrifice everything for you. If you want to call this love, call it. If you want to call it obsession, be my guest but I only know one thing and that is " I cannot live without you and I won't let you live without me. You are struck with me forever. "

I burst into tears and said

"If this is not love then I don't know what it. I never thought I would listen to these words from you. I never thought the person who wanted to kill me will become my greatest protector.

You are right, Aditya. Some secrets are not needed to be revealed. It is better off forgotten. If it  can save relationship and lives then it's better off left."

He kissed my forehead. We both sighed in relief.
I am hiding a secret from him and so was he but both of us know that if they are revealed then our relationship can break and both of us don't want that
I will protect my cousin but our relationship will not pay that cost.
I need to work smartly. I can't let Aditya doubt me or any of my family.
Soon harshita will also become a part of this family. I cannot put her relationship in danger.
I need to talk to Abhiraaj. He needs to stop.
I will ask him to ask for forgiveness and I will ask Aditya to forgive him. I am sure he will do it once he knows that Abhiraaj did all this to protect me.

I closed my eyes and all these thoughts were running into my mind.
Soon I felt asleep.

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From the author - Hi readers. Sorry for the late delay.
Due to some personal issue I couldn't write or upload new parts. I apologise. I hope you will understand.