bumblebee's journey (book 1)

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A/N sorry the last chapter took so long to come out i had school and i had to help my dad with some of his baseball team (: 

bumblebees pov:

I was somewhere......... w-where was here. am I dead is that .....no where is this. gaaahhh .... why does it hurt so bad.... why is it so dark..... am I laying down.... yes...I can feel it now..... come on bumblebee you just need to wake up. light yes the cool light shining down on me. it was cold right.... no no it was warm. the light slowly seeped though and my optics began to see the hazy outline of somewhere. it was low ceiling I..it flapped in the wind yes it was windy. my gaze finally focused and the image of a white tent top came into view. was i in the med tent back at camp..... then it all comes rushing back to me. the mission, the chase, running, highfire, the allspark, rainshot, everything. I shoot up looking around wildly for any danger. my spark was pounding In my chassis. "hey bee it's ok your safe" that voice were was it coming from. I calmed down and slowly looked around the room to see highfire, rainshot, and cascade huddled together. they looked tired. 

"your at a triage you were saved by ratchet" highfire explained walking over to me.  "did we-" only static came out and I felt a new fear. "wh-" more static and I coughed. my throat was dry and felt like it was on fire 'why couldn't I talk' my friends got a forlorn look on there faces. I tried to talk again but only made myself cough painfully. "bumblebee stop don't talk well explain" rainshot said and then it hit me...... megatron. h-he tore out my voice box and crushed it. I looked up at them holding my neck. I could feel the coolant welling up in my optics. I saw that they had the same expression as me and rainshot was already crying. "I'm so sorry bumblebee this is all my fault" highfire said his optics filling with coolant as it slowly rolled down his face hitting the floor lifelessly. I reached out to try to comfort him but retracted painfully when something felt like it was tearing. "bumblebee your injured don't move" rainshot said walking over to me instead.

I looked at highfire and relisted what he was feeling. he blames himself just like I blame myself for his loss of flight. I wanted to tell him I didn't blame him to tell him it was alright but i couldn't. because of megatron it was his fault everything that happened to us was his fault and i hated him for it. highfire had his helm facing the ground and i watched as the tears rolled down and hit the ground almost seeming motionless in the air. rainshot was holding my arm and stroking my door wings instead of my back which she normally did. i looked at her and pointed to highfire i hoped she understood what i wanted. she nodded and called him. "highfire bee wants you" she said and his helm slowly raised to lock optics with mine. how could I tell him if I couldn't talk. I looked around as he walked over I spotted a data pad and quickly grabbed it. I wrote on it 'its not your fault and look I'm still here' I typed and handed it to him. He read it and handed it back.before continuing. 

"no it is my fault I should have stayed and helped" I shook my helm trying to get him to understand. 'no if you had stayed with me we would have both been captured and interrogated and u wouldn't have been able to keep the secret from megatron with your life on the line' I typed as fast as I could. Then I pushed it back to him urging him to read it. When he finished his optics were burning with rage. "Megatron did this to you" he quite nearly yelled all I did was nod. "I'm going to turn that frager unto a pile of scrap for what he did to you" he hissed turning to the exit but I grabbed his arm to stop him. I just looked at him our optics locking I forced my optics to hold all the gratitude they could. "I-im sorry bee I won't put my life at risk I'll stay here with you" he said walking back in. "But cascade is the one who found you" highfire said looking at a embarrass cascads. I touched my servors to my spark to show my gratitude for him. 

Ratchet walked in and when he saw that I was awake he got a happy look planted on his face and hope sparkled in his optics. "I see your doing well" he comment before walking over to me. "But you need to get some recharge and you need to eat" the sound of food made me sick I know u need to but something tells me I won't be able to. My door wings give a droop and I let my legs hang off the side of the berth about to get up. "And where do you think your going" ratchet said stepping in front of me. I cocked my helm to the side in confusion. "your in no shape leave this tent and even less to just be carelessly walking around you need to stay here" he said placing a servor on my shoulder. I hung my helm I should have know it was going to be this. Stuck in this small tent. "But first we need to get you back to base and then you stay in the med tent where I can monitor your recovery" he said before looking back out of the tent. I must not have been out to terribly long if the battle was still going on.

"Cascade will you take him back to camp with highfire and rainshot make sure he says in the tent and give him something to eat" he said giving me a stern look during the last bit. "Yes ratchet" cascade replied and helped me off the berth outing my arm around his shoulder. I realized now how tired I was my legs felt like they were going to give way with ever step. I definitely wouldn't be going anywhere fast if ratchet had something to do with it. we walked by some other bots who all gave me kind smiles. I did my best to look happy to still be breathing but it all hurt so much. We walked completely out of the tent and I stopped to catch my breath which stung in my throat. "Hey bee I can fly us back if you want to" Cascade offered. I didn't want to depend on him but it seemed like the smartest option. _cascade another wave of injured is coming you need to fly bumblebee back to camp_ I heard ratchet thought the comm.

I was thankful for not having to ask myself. I didn't want to have to be a burden on anyone. "Come on bee let's go" he said transforming and opening his cargo hold. I shyly climbed in and sat down. "All good bee" I nodded hoping he could see it. "Ummm just knock when your ready" he said giving me a way to tell him without my voice. I knocked on his floor then pulled my arms into my lap. He gave a sigh. "We'll find a way for you to talk ........ One day" he said 'one day' I said to myself. 'hopefully' I gave a sigh and waited anxiously to get back to camp. I looked down at my frame it was covered in welded patches they all stung and I could feel the ones under my armor to. Why couldn't I just have a normal life one where I had a normal sparkling hood. one where I didn't face war every way I turned. one where I'm free.