bumblebee's journey (book 1)

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A/N here you go a Optimus and bumblebee father and son moment.(:

Bumblebees pov:

I sat over the edge of a tall building letting my odds swing off the side. The could night air stinging in my vents. It had only been a day since we lost highfire and the pain only worsened. I couldn't shake it no matter what I did no matter where I went or how fast I drove I couldn't escape it. It was like a dark cloud hanging over me threatening to swallow me hole in its dark gaping mouth. I looked over the war torn city where the small lights in the windows no longer lit it. Instead it was cold crude gray as our war ravaged our home stoping at nothing. We were diminishing our energon supplies by the minute and now that the all spark was gone we had no way to replenish it. "May I sit with you" I heard the cool controlled calming voice of Optimus. I turned to face him and gave a short nod. I wanted to say something but the words caught in my throat and refused to come out.

He walked over slowly sitting down beside me letting his peds rest over the edge of the city building. I looked down seeing just how far the drop was if I were to Slip. I looked out the ground stretching out beneath me then if I were to fall it would surly be the end. I looked away and moved away from the edge sitting firmly on the roof of the building. I refused to think about death anymore but it couldn't shake it. Optimus moved away from the edge aswell sitting beside me still. I missed highfire already and I couldn't hold it any longer. I hung my helm as the coolant started to flow from my optics. "You already miss him" Optimus calm voice reached my audio receptors and should have been claiming but instead they stung like knives into my spark.

::y-yeah:: I stuttered out hoping he didn't know I was crying but I knew he already did. The coolant streamed down my face falling to the ground lifelessly. I let out a whimper as I sobbed holding my face with my servos. Soon I felt the large caring servos of Optimus on my back pulling me towards him. I didn't resist and let him pull me in. He pulled me up to his chassis and I gave in sobbing into him. He hugged me tightly and soon started gently rubbing my back in between my door wings. It was calming as I just sat there crying. I pushed against his chassis and felt the warmth of him all around me. It felt so familiar but where had I felt this from, who gave me something like this before him. 'kickback, sire' the realization struck me like a train. I had forgotten where it felt like to be loved by someone I considered a sire.

"I'm here don't worry I won't let anything hurt you again" he said half to himself, half to me. I wanted to thank him but nothing came out as I opened my mouth. Only a pitiful squeak came out and that was all I could manage before I broke down again. This time for everything that had happened. Being abandoned, loosing my family, losing my best friend, my town being destroyed, shocksplit betraying us, being robbed of my voice, and now loosing my best friend all over again. I couldn't take it anymore, I wanted to leave go somewhere no one would find me, somewhere no one could get hurt, somewhere I didn't have to feel the hurt. "I know it hurts" he said holding me closer rubbing the top of my helm.

::mhmm:: I managed to mumble out. "you feel like you can't go on" he said his words digging deep into my spark but I knew I needed to hear them. ::mhmm:: I mumbled again this time it was harder and the words almost stuck in my mouth. "You feel like you want to give up and leave go somewhere no one knows you and leave it all behind" he said and it was so hard to respond. I couldn't get anything out and I only sobbed harder and just nodded into his frame. "You must not give in, you must stay strong and if you can't carry the weight alone than we will help you, you don't have to live a life of tragedy alone, you have many friends here who are willing to give everything for you just as you are for them in return" he said and something in my spark clicked. ::i-i don't have to do it a-alone:: I said my voice shaking with grief and sadness.

"You never had to, we were always there you just needed help finding it" he said leaning back letting his weight rest on his servos as he looked up at the night sky. I stayed sitting up straight not looking at the sky. He gently extended a servo to me taking my frame in his servor leading me downward untill I was curled beside him. I didn't feel uncomfortable but instead the most trusting I had been in a long time. I felt like I could sleep and never wake, like there was no danger in our world. I looked up into the sky expecting nothing but a cloudy night. Instead I was met with thousands of tiny twinkling stars all glowing with different shades, some bright others dull, some red, some blue. "beautiful isn't it" he said pulling me closer to his side letting me rest my helm on his chassis as I looked up in amazement.

::yes they are:: I replied to stunned to care if it was dry or not. The stars shown like hundreds of tiny lights l, like the city light as the lit the small windows of much larger taller buildings. I understand now they ones we lost weren't gone we just couldn't see them. "The ones we lost are not truly gone, put it as..." He paused searching for the words. ::another transformation:: I finished looking on in complete awe. I felt completely at peace here and slowly felt myself start to slip into recharge. I invited it in letting it wash over me like cool waves of tranquility. Optimus started rubbing my helm again and layed back looking on at the stars as well. I slipped into recharge and invited it with open arms. I curled into Optimus side. It felt better than anything I had felt in what seemed like forever. Like everything was fine. Like I was finally....free.

Ratchets pov:

I walked toward the building I saw Optimus head toward and reached the top soon after. I looked over to the roof and saw he was lying on his back looking up at the sky a small yellow bundle laying asleep curled into his chassis beside him. I almost called out to him then I realized both were asleep his chassis slowoy rising and falling in sink with bumblebees. I slowly walked over to them and looked down and wondered what they had been looking at. Then I looked up and saw what they saw. Thousands, millions of tiny stars glowing brilliantly. I smiled, Optimus always loved the stars. I gave a slight chuckle and looked back down at them. They looked like father and son, I knew Optimus would be happy about this. I took a picture for later and walked back downstairs. They would surly enjoy a memory like this latter.

It warmed my spark to see bumblebee have someone like that. I knew highfire was his best friend but he needed more of a father than a friend, someone he could turn to when he needed guidance. I saw Cascade and rainshot walk up to me and I knew they were looking for bumblebee. "Ratchet have you seen bumblebee" rainshot asked nervous. I gave another slight chuckle and nodded. "yes he's with Optimus up too I suggest you don't disturb them" I said and she cocked he helm to the side. "why did something happen" Cascade said his optics darting from me to rainshot. "Don't worry he's fine" I said and showed them the picture I had taken on the data pad I was holding. "There like father and son" rainshot commented. "Yeah they do, they look so peaceful" Cascade added.

"I didn't know Optimus could be so caring" Cascade said again. "You wouldn't expect it from him but he's got a soft spot for bumblebee he always has" I said pulling the data pad away. "always?" Rainshot said in confusion. "Optimus knew his father kickback he was the battle specialist, he would always talk about bumblebee, Optimus has known him for most of his life even if bumblebee didn't know" I said shifting my weight. "Him and kickback were good friends, kickback taught Optimus to live the stars" I said angling my helm to look at the sky. The stars where duller here in camp but still tiny balls of light. "So Optimus knew bumblebees name wasn't B-127.... So why didn't he tell him" Cascade said in confusion. "Optimus dose many things we can't understand but I know that he wanted him to find himself, just like he had to find he was Optimus prime, and it worked out so now there sharing a moment that will last forever"