bumblebee's journey (book 1)

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A/N Primus this wasn't supposed to get it 50 chapters but hey I did and were still not halfway through the plot he he hehe but how cool more than 50 chapters this is going to be great I hope a lot of people read my story. And I'm using the live action bot designs for those who aren't in tfp.

Ratchets pov:

"Your optics" I said and pulled away from bees face. He cocked his helm to the side in confusion. His optics were both a swirling blue mixed with red spinning when his spun. ::what is it ratchet:: he asked fear puting a edge in his voice. "Look" I said and held up the data pad I always carried around. He looked at his reflection observing his own optics. ::what happened to them:: he said worried and handed the pad back to me. "I..... Don't know" I said pausing. I looked behind him and saw the worried face of Optimus behind him. "let's get you back to camp" he said and tried to lead him back to camp but bumblebee resided. 'was he still angry' I thought to myself.

::what about the other bots they'll judge me more than they already do:: he said and looked away. "Maybe they'll change back" I said and placed my servo on his shoulder. I doubt they would and it was already obvious to him as well. ::maybe:: he said and stated off not even glancing back at us. Optimus started off but I placed my servo on his shoulder to stop him. "Yes ratchet" he asked and I braised myself for what I needed to tell him. I hadn't told him that Bumblebee didn't need to wear his mask and that it was purely because he was self conscious about it. "He's self conscious about them just as he was with his voice box he...... Doesn't need to wear his mask it's his decision" I explained and saw Optimus face sadden.

"I will let him keep his decision it is doing no harm but I will talk to him I don't wish to see him like this" he said ending the conversation and following bee. I gave a sigh and started off as well. We made it all the way back to camp and still bees optics did not change. They still had that brilliant blue but they were forced to look mean with the red swirling them. He paused at the entrance. ::what I would give to have my mask back:: he added and I suddenly realized that he hadn't worn it since he had his voice box ripped out. "You never told me you lost it" I said and scolded him. Even a mask was part of a cybertronians body and would still hurt it it was forcibly removed. ::oh yeah I guess I got caught up with everything else that I forgot about it well it happened right before.........:: his voice trailed off.

"We know what you mean bumblebee" Optimus said and placed a servo on his shoulder. But his words barely process in my helm. Instead it was what his optics did when he made the joke at the start. "Bee say something positive" I command and he looked confused than shrugged. ::I love being a autobot:: he said and my theory was confirmed. His optics should loose more of the red when he said something positive or happy. ::what is it ratchet:: he said and looked concerned at Optimus. Instead of his optics growing more red when he got worried instead they stayed the same. "Say something else" I asked again.

::ummm your a great doctor:: he said and the red continued to vanish. This time I looked at Optimus and he gave me a quick nod, he had seen the same thing. ::what is it:: he said slightly annoyed. I was expecting his optics to change back to red again but still they stayed the same. "bumblebee it seemed you can change your optics back to blue by saying it thinking about something positive and it also appears that they will only revert back to red when you become severely agitated" Optimus said carefully picking his words. ::so all I have to do is be happy:: he commented and then rolled his optics. ::how fun because war is fun:: he said sarcasticly and his door wings gave a irritated twich.

"Just come on just think about something this time" I added and he thought for a moment and the red completely vanished. ::how bout now:: he asked and then smiled behind his mask obviously because he had seen mine. "it worked there gone" I added again. ::Great now let's go I'm hungry:: he said and walked into camp. I gave a side glance at Optimus and saw him smiling. "You are the best doctor a prime could wish for old friend" he added before walking into camp. I chuckled under my breath and walking in after him. Maybe I could make things turn out right after all

Bumblebees pov:

I walked into camp and looked around for cascade and Rainshot shot. I didn't see them and instead decided to get some energon down. I had lied about being hungry I just didn't want them to worry about me, the least I could do was try. I spotted jazz across the camp coming out of the med tent. He looked around for a moment before walking over to me. "There you are bee, Rainshot and cascade were just looking for you" he said as he walked up. ::are they here now:: I asked and took a glance behind him. I looked back when I didn't see either of them. "No sorry you just missed them" he said and sadly shrugged his shoulders. I felt my door wings droop before he pulled something out of his sub space. It was a bright blue energon cube. "you hungry if so I know a cool place to kick it" he added handing it to me in a friendly tone.

::s-sure:: I replied and hesitantly took it from him. "Yack yack just wait here while I go get some" He replied and hurried off back the way he came. I gave a sigh and looked around me. I spotted ratchet and optimus watching me from the other side of the camp and instantly got self conscious about what I was doing. I looked away and waiting for jazz to come back with wasn't to much longer. He came back skipping happily along and leading me away to a building. I walked in the roof was tall and the walls had almost floral designs on them. ::wow jazz this place is amazing:: I commented looking around me. "told you so, there's a good spot to sit just around the corner" he added and walked around the corner. I followed and there were a few large boxes covered in a bit of dust and rubble. he walked over and brushed some off from one and than sat on it.

i did the same and sat cross legged on the top nervously shifting the cube in my servos. I looked over to jazz who was eating his without trouble. 'come on bee just try' I said to myself and slowly deactivated my mask to eat. I took one bite and got it down without trouble. jazz looked up then quickly back down and took another bite of his energon. I was confused on what had caused him to do that then suddenly became self conscience about my scars on my mouth and the way it moved. I turned away and did my best to shield it from his sight. "i-im sorry bee I didn't mean to it just......" he started training off. ::surprised you, its ok:: I replied not turning back to him. he got up and walked over to me. I looked up at him but only slightly so he still couldn't see my mouth. he placed his servo on my shoulder and gently turned me toward him.

"hey you don't need to hide it from me its nothing to be ashamed of" he replied with a friendly smile showing on his face. ::that's not what some of the other bots think:: I replied and pulled away. "WHAT who was it tell me, imma go beat the ever loving scrap out of them" he said and started walking back the way we came. ::jazz no it's fine I'm over it:: I replied and got up to follow him. he turned back to me his face twisted with anger. "your obviously not or you wouldn't care so much about not showing it, please all of us have scars its not like your any different" he said and I looked away. ::yeah maybe but none of them sound like a broken record:: I replied back harshly. "come on bee you don't sound like a broken record you've just got character" he replied again. I turned back to him his words felt nice but it still didn't convince me.

::yeah because having you voice box ripped out by a war lord is character:: I replied more in a joking tone this time. "well maybe its not the best.......... ok it sucks but at least you can talk remember before you just had to point around and only primus knows how ratchet made you a new one" he said flabbergasted and waving his srevors in the air. ::hehe yeah he's great:: I replied and we walked back to our spots. jazz always had that fun way of making you forget the reason you were angry in the first place. "go on bee finish up your energon and well head back to the camp before they start getting worried. he replied and we did just that.