bumblebee's journey (book 1)

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A/N Go reread chapter 39 i made changes if i hadn't it would have gotten confusing fast and I didn't do a very good job at explaining what was happening in the first version so yeah this is definitely going to be over 50 chapters long I was totally wrong ........ y'all if I continue it with AU'S it's probably going to be over 100 I cant ....... but I will (:

ratchets pov:

I was counting up the numbers of our energon storage. bumblebee, rainshot, cascade, and highfire or the A-team were out on a border patrol. I had seen bumblebee with his mouth guard up but I never commented on it. I knew he was self consensus about how his mouth looked with the scars along with the new voice not following his mouth. I finished counting them and stepped back and walked out of the storage unit. we were low but it was all accounted for. I walked out into the cloudy sun. I looked around the camp all seemed right but I had a gut wrenching feeling that something was terribly wrong. I spotted Optimus across the camp and made my way over to him. "hello my old friend what is it that you may require" he asked as I walked up in front of him. "nothing but I have a ........... feeling something is......... wrong" he nodded. "i to have that feeling"  he said as well.

a few moments later my feeling became reality when highfire walked thought the camp entrance. his hung was hung low and his steps were long and sad. I took a glance at Optimus and he returned it. we hurriedly walked over to him stopping him to talk. "highfire what happened where'd the rest of your team" I questioned getting even more worried when no one else followed him. he didn't respond for a moment then looked up at Optimus his optics looked like they were about to leak coolant. "I've done something terrible and I will never forgive myself for it" that was all he said before continuing to walk away. he didn't turn to look at another spark as he walked. keeping his helm low he walked to the recharge area. I looked back up at Optimus who looked just as confused as I was. "I do not believe anyone has been seriously injured but there is definitely something wrong" he said 

he motioned for me to follow him out of camp and I did as I was told. I looked at my scanner on my arm. all three life signals were still online they were moving slowly. we walked for a ways before I heard muffled talking from around the corner. "come on bee we cant help you if you wont tell us what's wrong" that was rainshots voice. it was worried and sad. Optimus quickly lead us around the corner to see if I had heard right. I was bumblebee was sitting on the ground with his knees pulled up to his chassis. rainshot was stroking his back while sitting next to him and cascade was on one knee In front of him. Optimus was the first one over to them. "cascade" he called getting there attention. cascade instantly got up blocking Optimus from getting any closer to bee and rainshots. "Optimus you can help right y-your close with Bee you can get him to tell you what's wrong, right"  he pleaded his srevors shaking.

"do you have any information already" he said trying to be strategic with it. cascade nodded "highfire went to check on bumblebee after we had a little dispute but when we got there highfire was angry he had bee cornered and he looked like he wanted to hurt him I-I don't know if he already did or not either" I was shocked they were such good friends what in the name of primus could have caused this.  "and just be careful he's jumpy right now" cascade added taking a nervous glance back to bee. Optimus walked over and rainshot got up to come talk to us. "rainshot do you have any idea what could have happened" I asked. she shook her helm. "no I don't but.......... he was scared ratchet like really scared he hasn't said a word since then" she stated and I thought of the reason why. maybe something had happened to his voice box....... no if something had he would have told them. "primus let us figure this out"

Optimus pov:

I slowly walked over to bumblebee as rainshot got up and left. bee looked after her like he wanted her to stay but still he said nothing. he spotted me and moved slightly away like he was unsure if I could be trusted. I put my servos up like I had done when we first met and slowly knelt down beside him. his optics were wide with fear and his chassis ,luckily, was stedaly rising and falling. "bumblebee everything is going to be fine but you have to tell your friends whats happened if you dont im afraid you will never heal" i slowly said using his friends as an anchor. he sighed and looked up at me. ::h-he w-w-was angry and n-not hims-self" he stuttered out before letting his helm rest against his knees again. i got back up we weren't going to get him to say more not right now at least. I took on last glance back and he looked like he was calming down.

rainshots pov:

 we had finished talking and were heading back to camp now. we walked in a tight group with Bee in the middle and Optimus a little ways ahead leading. bumblebee had been sticking close to me since we found him. I wondered if it was that he trusted me or I was just nice ether way I liked the fact he wanted to be beside me. He had started to calm down and he'd answer some of our questions but not what happened. ratchet and cascade had sped up to talk to Optimus leaving just me and bee. ::rainshot..... what did I do wrong:: he asked looking at me. "i-um look we don't know what happened but ere going to get this all sorted out I promise" I answers as truthfully as I could. he smiled at me behind his mask the fear slowly dispersing from his optics. 'lets hope I'm right' I looked up at the grey cloudy sky. did the cons do something to them if so what could they have done to have such a drastic response.  

Highfire's pov:

'What have you done, what have you done, what have you done' I repeated over and over while I layed on the cot. I stared up at the tall roof of the recharge room. All the cots were close together and we recharged in military style all bunched up together. Some lying on cots others on the ground using each other as pillows. All I could think about was how last night was perfect me and rainshot had been spooning and bee was letting his helm rest on cascade who said he actually quite enjoyed being able to look after him while we were asleep. But now that was all gone I had ruined it. My spark mate is probably questioning if I was the right choice. The most caring bot I know blamed me with no remorse cascade didn't even check if I had been ok which he did even if he was mad at me. But worsted of all I hit my best friend and now he doesn't trust me within twenty feet of him. 

{You did the right thing you just don't know it yet} The voice said to me. It was familiar but this time it was friendly and claiming. 'who are you' I asked hoping for a response. {me i'm........ The allspark} the voice said pausing for a moment. I was stunned the allspark was actually talking to me like it had spoken to ratchet. 'so I did the right thing how is hurting my friends the right thing to do' I asked the allspark. {I cannot share that with you just yet but I will} I still didn't think it was the right thing to do. Why did I ever listen to you, it just ruined things 'right' it was all so confusing. I still felt absolutely sick at the thought of what I had just done. I was probably not going to get any forgiveness not yet maybe not ever. "Why did I listen to you"