Flowers stained with crimson blood [Kim x Macau]

chapter 11

He wrapped the bandages around his arms but stopped halfway , some marks were fading

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He took the bandages off , opening the drawer , he took the blade out , he would rather remember the pain than it being forgotten , marks after marks , blood by blood , he made them again , his skin felt hot , they were burning

They were itching , his hand was shaking , the one holding the blade

Why am I the unfortunate one? Why does it have to be me? Out of all people

He found himself crying while the blood was flowing over his arms , he wipe them with a tissue and put a double bandage , he washed his face

He didn't know what to do , the boredom was killing him at the same time

He wanted to talk someone , he wished he could talk to..no , was he thinking about him? No way in years would he ever want to talk to him and yet , he didn't have anyone who could understand him

No way am I thinking of him

Macau sat down on the chair realising he's thinking of Kim , both enemy and friend

Friend?

He remembered arguing with him all the time

Macau grew from it and still doesn't understand why he hates him?

He never understood it

Ever since he was a kid , he hated his hair , his eyes , his voice

Everything about him

But then again , why does he hate him?

He felt his skin was ripping apart , he realised he made a much deeper mark which cut almost near his veins , near his wrist , he wipe them with a tissue and wrapped the bandage

He got out of the bathroom

He thinks again

Why does he hate him?

Why does he actually hate him?

What's the honest reason?

He closed the door behind him , which was the door of the balcony

Why did I ever hate him? I..don't..

He lowered his eyes , those words repeated again and again inside his mind , he blinked twice

Kim?

He saw Kim , he saw him smoking while walking , his eyes never left him , he was wearing a black jacket with pockets , white shirt underneath and grey pant , his hair was untied , he had his glasses with him as also his piercing on his eyebrow , earring on only one ear which made him cooler

Macau locked his eyes on him , watching him walked back and fourth as he was talking on the phone

The cigarette leaving his mouth as he was talking made Macau stared in confusion

His heart throb for a second before he saw Kim stopped walking , Kim lifted his head which made Macau jolted from shockness , he turned around to get inside but only to bump his head into the door

He wanted to curse but bite his lip to not to , he put his hand on his forehead , he wasn't bleeding which was good but he sure he does have a swelling and it hurts a lot

He heard laughing behind him and let out an irritate sigh

Why did he even go outside for?