Flowers stained with crimson blood [Kim x Macau]

chapter 19

Kim patted his back , calming him , Macau's hands were still shaking while clutching into his shirt

Still sobbing into his arms , he really needed that , someone to hugged him and not judge him

He still wish Kim didn't see them but what will happen after? Will Kim chase him out?

"Are you calm now?"

His voice was soft and soothing , he gradually became calmer but was still messed up , he found it embarrassing

Hugging Kim just like this was a bit awkward but he didn't want to let go

But Kim let go of him , unwrapping his hands from his waist , he looked at Macau who lowered his eyes after meeting his eyes , they were red , his cheeks were red , even his eyes

He cried too much , he cries like this whenever he is alone in his room but why with him? He expressed all kind of emotions with him

Kim grabbed his hand gently , Macau raised his head to look at him but next thing he knew was him being dragged to some kind of room , getting dragged upstairs , he didn't say anything and just went along

His mind wanted him to stop him , his ming was pressuring him to not go with him , to leave in silence or in anger but he went along

No argument or so

They went to his bathroom where there was a small stool

He made Macau sat down

Kim took the med kit , stepping near him , he kneeled down infront of Macau which was genuinely scared

"Macau"

He said his name but Macau didn't seemed to hear it , he didn't want to be a bother

But his attention went to Kim when he touched his hand

"Let me help you"

Macau pursed his lips

"I..don't.."

He didn't know what to say , this is the first time

The first person offering help

"Let me take a much closer look to them"

Macau was stubborn but he let Kim rolled up his sleeves , showing the ugly scars he made , Kim didn't seemed surprised , he took a cotton , putting ointment on it , he rubbed them slowly on the cuts which made Macau winced

Kim stopped and looked at him but he didn't say anything , he rubbed the cotton on both his arms , they soon became red , his arms , due to the burning pain , Kim bandaged them correctly 

To say , Kim could've made him sat on the couch but he didn't want to leave him alone

Kim's heart ached when he actually was right about Macau hurting himself , he was wishing they weren't cuts , he was hopong maybe it was really a burn or something like that

"Macau , let's talk downstairs?"

He nodded , Macau wanted to actually get out of here , how could he pretend like he didn't just cried infront of Kim?

They went downstairs , Kim made Macau sat on the couch

"Macau , let's talk"

"Don't feel like it"

He says , Kim expected it but he still felt hurt but it

"Stay here then"

Macau furrowed his eyebrows

"What? No!"

Macau accidentally raised his voice , he didn't mean it but it came out eventually

But stayed silent while Macau was panicking in his own mind , Kim could feel and see it in his eyes

But soon his expression soften

"I'm sorry"

He said these words before they both went silent

They didn't talk , nor make any moments

Any sounds or whatever so

For a whole 15 minutes they was silent until Kim's phone interrupted them

Kim took his phone and answered it , Macau shot up straight , he felt kinda numb ad was embarrassed so he felt like he should go home

But as soon as he wanted to walk away , he felt his wrist was grabbed , he looked bhiej and saw Kim , still talking on his phone but his hand was holding his wrist

"Kim , just fucking let go of me!"

He whispered but Kim paid no attention to him