Well, I didn't know that it'd be than hard to handle. That's not something new for you, but I'm worn out. Again. I have many doubts about everything everyday. Idk what I should do with my life. I feel like I'm drowning, because everyday I have the seme day and I end up with burning out. I can ensure you, that I'm so close to this point. And I really hate that, because that's the worst that can happen to you. I am begging myself not to let it happen. But it requires strength and I do not have it right now. So yeah. Now it seems to me like I lost controll over my life.
The studing and working is that determines me today. I'm always busy and have no time for living and having rest. Sometimes I think that I'm not such a strong a person as I thought I might be. I'm not sure about it but this a thought inside my head that drives me cazy everytime. What if I went the wrong way and now I'm not in the place where I was suppose to be... Maube I shouldn't have started things that I did start? But actually what's the point to talk about it if I did it anyway? So yeah I just need to put my thoughts down here to bring me some inner peace. I don't believe that it will but it is the only way I can try at the moment.
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SaggisticaЧи відчували ви коли-небудь, що тебе розриває зсередини через емоції, які вириваються на волю? Ти намагаєшся їх стримувати до останнього, а потім ти зачіпляєшся за дверну ручку - і все. А я відчуваю і все більше забуваю відчуття, коли душа не рветь...
