Caramel Milk & Red Wine | Namjin FF

(14) emotional & romantic

Seokjin came downstairs after freshening up, now dressed in his blue pajamas. Namjoon was already busy in the kitchen, cooking.

Taking a seat at the table, Seokjin watched him, wondering how he got so lucky to have a mate like Namjoon. It was rare to see an alpha cooking for their omega, and yet Namjoon did it so effortlessly. After a short while, the alpha placed a bowl of buldak and fried pork in front of him.

Seokjin smiled, thanked him, and immediately began eating, realizing just how hungry he was. Namjoon joined him at the table, and once they finished, he took the dishes to the sink. Before Seokjin could rinse them, Namjoon gently grabbed his wrist and led him to the living room.

"I need to talk to you," Namjoon said, sitting beside Seokjin, one leg resting on the couch and the other hanging off the side. Seokjin nodded, pulling his legs onto the sofa to face him fully.

"We need to discuss how we want to move forward," Namjoon said, looking at Seokjin, who waited for him to continue.

"I'm happy with the pace we're going at, but I'll be just as content if you want more," Namjoon continued, taking Seokjin’s hands in his own.

"We haven’t had sex yet. You haven’t gone through your first heat, nor made your first nest. I haven't experienced my first rut either. I know you might expect more from me, and if you do, you need to tell me." Namjoon gave his hands a soft squeeze, and Seokjin blushed at his words.

"I want to be with you. I want to spend my ruts with you, help you through your heats, mark you, and give you everything you desire—but we need to decide when," Namjoon said, his tone serious but gentle.

"If you want our first time to be during your heat, then so be it. If you want it to be tonight, then it will be tonight." Seokjin listened intently, captivated by Namjoon’s sincerity.

"And if you're wondering why I’m bringing this up tonight, it’s because you asked me to mark you earlier. But I want you to think it through. I’ve spent most of my life alone, which is why I crave a family so deeply. But I need you to decide what you truly want. I’m giving you all the control—you can do whatever you want with me. What you did tonight, marking me, I loved it. If you want to do it again, I’m yours," Namjoon said, his eyes locking onto Seokjin's, who hadn’t blinked once.

"So, Seokjin, how do you want our relationship to progress?" Namjoon asked. Seokjin blinked, then finally spoke.

"I want you to do whatever you feel like. I won’t stop you."

Namjoon shook his head. "No, Seokjin, that’s the whole point of this conversation. I want you to set the pace. To be honest, I find you incredibly attractive. I’d love nothing more than to pin you down on this sofa and mark every inch of your skin as mine because you’re the most beautiful omega I’ve ever seen. But that’s not how I want this to go. I want you to truly desire me. I don’t know how well I’ve expressed it, because I struggle to show my emotions, but I need you—so much," Namjoon confessed.

Seokjin gulped, feeling the intensity of Namjoon's scent shift, his own heart swelling at the sound of his alpha's heartfelt words.

"But I don’t want you to feel obligated to do everything an omega is expected to do. You shouldn’t want a mark just because your alpha wants it, and you don’t have to feel pressured to get pregnant just because I want a family," Namjoon said, his voice gentle. Seokjin felt a surge of emotion. Namjoon was a true-blood alpha, the most powerful of his kind, yet he was surrendering control to him.

"So, I want you to take your time and think it through. When do you want my mark? I want it to be your decision. I don’t want to burden you with any of this. Even if you decide you don’t want my mark, it’s okay. I’ll respect whatever choice you make," Namjoon added. Seokjin swallowed hard, trying to suppress his tears. Damn it, he thought, I always cry at the wrong moments.