Want You (BoyxBoy)

-6-

-Ry-

I know he's not coming. I spent the whole night and the next morning trying to come to accept it. Meeting him in general was pure luck. There's just no way he'll actually become a part of my life. He's just too good to be true.

Again, I'm not a religious man, but I've been praying and wishing for a higher being to just let me have him. Even if it's only for a little while. I know we're not even dating, but I'm not ready to move on from him. I honestly don't see anyone comparing to him.

"I just want you," I mumble to myself, letting the thoughts him consume me.

When I hear a knock on the door, I don't even get my hopes up. I know it's not going to be him. Not on the first day. But I'm not expecting anyone else, so I do get a little hopeful pulling the door open. I get hit with an intense boost of serotonin when I see it is in fact him.

"You came?" I ask, almost believing that I'm just hallucinating.

"Yeah..."

"I thought you'd wait 'til the last day. Or that you wouldn't come at all," I admit.

"Well... I'm here." He knows that means he's supposed to go on a date with me, right? Holy shit, I can't believe he actually came.

"Yeah. And what does that mean?" Say you'll go out with me.

"Can I come in first?" he asks, rubbing his arm with his hand.

"Yeah, of course." I move out of his way to let him in, shutting the door behind us. Only then does it dawn on me. He willingly came into my apartment knowing we'd be alone. No, wait, he asked to. He's starting to trust me. Another rush of serotonin.

"Have you not gone to get your truck yet?" he asks. He must've noticed it wasn't here. I'm so glad that didn't stop him from knocking. I'm kind of surprised it didn't.

"No. I told Maya to tell Lexi I'd get it tomorrow. I didn't feel like taking an Uber tonight." I got up later than usual, mainly because I kept having dreams about him and didn't want to wake up from them yet. Then after showering, eating something, and cleaning up around my apartment, it was getting close to five. With the possibility of him coming tonight, I didn't want to risk going to get my truck and not being here.

"I could..." he starts, making me curious. Is he about to offer to do it? "I could take you if you want. I mean, I am the reason you left it." There's no way. He's usually trying to avoid me, yet he just offered to do something together.

As happy as I feel, I try to answer without being overly excited. "Uh, yeah. I'd like that. When do you want to?"

"Well, school starts back tomorrow, so tonight would be better for me."

"Okay. Well, actually, all my jeans are in the dryer right now, and I'm not a huge fan of wearing sweatpants out. Do you want to wait with me until they're done?" Am I using this just as an excuse to hang out with him longer? Yes. But it's not like I'm lying. I will wear sweats out, but I don't really like it. They aren't as secure. "Sorry. I've been falling behind on laundry. They shouldn't be too much longer," I add, not wanting him to change his mind.

"Sure," he answers, making me feel excited again. But while we're waiting... he can tell me why he came.

"So, why did you come here? I know it wasn't just to offer me a ride."

"I want to try it." Dating? Is that what he's talking about? I mean, that is why I told him to come here.

"Try what?" I ask, wanting him to clarify.

"Kissing." He once again leaves me stunned. Maybe I really am hallucinating all of this.

"What?"

"What's wrong?" he asks, coming off nonchalant. "We almost did it last night anyway." Did I unlock a new Wes personality or something? He's usually either bratty and cruel or shy and flustered. He seems really confident right now. Kind of like he was last night, but I thought he was just drunk. Maybe this is just another side of him. Or it's just a facade.