Living Off Past Trauma.

Don't worry

{Posted 1st October 2024}
{Edited 11th October 2024}

Lamar Kingston//Killa
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I got inside the house totally annoyed, angry and most definitely moody. I walked to the kitchen to find Onika drinking water. When she turned to look at me, she raised her brows and walked over to me. "And then?" She asked. "What?" I sat on one of the island stools with a frown. "Don't what me. Why you come in like that. Yo facial expression says a lot." She scoffs with her hands on her hips.

"Is nun don't worry." I waved it off before I pulled out my phone and went through my contacts looking for that one person's number. Before I could do anything else, my phone was snatched outta my hands. I looked up and saw Onika looking at my screen. "The fuck?" I said. "Killa whas going on with you. Why you look moody. Is just a simple question you'on wanna answer brooo. Now you scrolling through your phone as if it's nothing when I know it's something." she looked sad and angry. I knew she just wanted to know what's wrong but I also don't wanna talk about it. Neither do I want her to worry. "I said it's nun. Now give me my phone." I said sternly.

"No." She walked to the corner of the kitchen and continued looking for I don't know what on my phone. I sighed and stood up from where I was sitting. I snatched my phone out of her hand and turned around. "Killa the fuck man. Whas going on with you. You left this morning looking normal and shit, now you come back looking and acting moody. What the fuck did I do. Talk to me baby." Her voice cracked a bit as she spoke. My heart instantly shattered and I quickly turned around to see Onika crying silently. She tried wiping her tears but more just came running down her cheeks.

I sadly sighed and wrapped my arms around her. She attempted to push me back but failed. "No leave me alone." She said still crying. I chuckled little before hugging her tightly. "Baby I'm sorry. Ian mean to make you cry. I hate to see you cry. Just shits going on at the trap so now I'm just annoyed with it."

"Now why didn't you just fucking say something in the bloody first place." She looked up at me, her eyes were watery but so fucking gorgeous. "Ion wanna worry you." I sighed. She frowned before she said something. "Full story. Now. What's wrong and don't lie to me."

I knew I couldn't escape her now so I just went to the living room and sat on one of the couches. I pulled Onika close to me so her legs were on top of my legs. My one arm around her waist while the other one rested on her thigh. "Dayum so...last year June when I went to South London for business, I uhm.... bumped into Jamele." I said, my voice laced with disgust at the mention of his name. "YOUR DAD??!!!" she looked bewildered. Her mouth hung low with her eyes as wide as saucers. I chuckled at the way she looked. "WHATTT?"

"Dayum baby chillout. Yea well I saw him and his daughter. Her names Indigo and she has a brother. His names Lyric." I said. "How old are they?" She asked. "She twenty-two and he nineteen."

"Ohhhh. You have a pic of them." She asked with an excited smile. Unfortunately I have to wipe that smile off her face. "No why would I?" I turned to look at her with my eyebrow raised. She huffed and crossed her arms over her chest. "Hm...so how about the mother."

"She died during a car crash like about two years ago." I shrug my shoulders. "Oh"

"Yea well reason I'm telling you this is because they in a gang too. Biggest gang in the UK and Chicago and they're also involved in the Cartel, Mafias and drug companies just like us. So like they shit and maybe they might know how to get to the gang we's looking foe."

"Ohhhhhh shiiiiii. That's crazy ey. Wait so why U moody then?" She asked. "Ion wanna fucking talk to any of them. Whether it's my sister, brother or dad. Ion want nun to do with them neither do I wanna see them. " I growl angrily. "Will, you . I chuckle, turning my face towards her. Her eyes were on my lips but soon landed on my eyes. "Just do it. You need to. I'll be here if you need help talking to them, okay." She reassures.

"Okay. I just need to do it befoe next week Sunday or else Omar and I finna have a gun fight." I said looking down at my laps. "And I'm sorry for acting so dead." I look up at her. Her lips tugged into a small smile before kissing me. I pulled her closer to me so she was straddling my legs. My arms snaked around her waist and hers were holding my face. I licked her bottom lip and that was a signal for her to allow me to slip my tongue into her mouth. She allowed me to and fuck was her mouth warm. She soon pulled back and gave me a hug. "It's fine." She said.

Lola brinks//Lani
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Tai asked if I could come over so that's what I did. We just chilling in the living room watching a movie. Nothing fancy, not that I mind. I saw Tai walk up the stairs and when he came back, he had his Ps5 in his hands. He turned to me and smiled, "You wanna play FIFA?" He asked. "Yea but ion know how to play." I said.

"Is cool. I can teach you." he said and came to sit next to me and handed me a controller. "Uh, sure." I smiled. As I was paying attention to the TV, I felt myself being lifted up and placed in-between Tai's legs. I turned around and saw he was looking at the screen. "Taylor, what you doin'?" I asked, trying my best to hold my smile. His gaze shifted from the screen to my face. He had this sexy ass smirk on his face that gosh I just wanted to kiss off.

Wait what. Why would I wanna kiss him?

"What I'm teaching you how to play of course." He placed his hands around mine which were on the controller. I froze, unable to say anything. I just sucked my teeth and turned around. It took me a total of 15 minutes to get a hang of the game and i had butterflies the whole time. We played a few quick matches. Obviously, him winning in every game. I didn't mind tho. We were having a lot of fun and that's all that mattered.

We did a few other things before I had to leave. We stood in front of my apartment complex. Yes I moved outta my auntie's house. I was ready to open the car door and walk out but he stopped me. "You busy tomorrow?" He asked me. He had a nervous look on his face for some reason. "No whyyyy?" I asked with concern laced in my voice. "Lemme take you out for lunch. We can go to the amusement park afterwards...that's if you wanna." He said. I found it cute how he got nervous. "Yea, sure." I smiled and kissed his cheek before I hopped out of the car and made my way towards my apartment complex.

I took the elevator to my apartment. Exactly when I got inside, I got a phone call from an unknown number and I already knew who it was. I was contemplating on whether to answer it or not. I just answered it to not look for problems. I sighed before I spoke, "What you want?"

"What's got up your ass?" I froze when I heard it was Rugrat. "Why you calling?". "Dayum baby. You became feisty didn't ya?" I cringed at the word baby. "Don't call me baby and for the last time, what the fuck you want?" I growled angrily.

"I miss you." He said. I scoffed at what he said. He didn't miss me. I knew that for a fact. "Ha. I don't miss you. Now goodnight." I said ready to hang up but my blood went cold by what he said next. "Fuck baby don't be so. Anyway, I've got a mission foe you. Don't worry, it'an hard." He said. Fuck. No no no. I haven't been on any mission in like years and fuck what makes you think I'd go on one now. "No. Ion wanna go on one. I told you guys to leave me alone. Ion want nun to do with you guys. Go ask someone else."

"Darling, I want you to do it. You'on want something to happen to yo precious boyfriend do you?" He asked. "W-what boyfriend?" I asked confused. "Baby don't act stupid. You knows I'm talking about Tai. Do it or else he gets hurt. I'll send you the details later. And don't pitch up and see what gon happen to him." He said darkly and then I heard a beeping sound. Indicating that he hung up.

"This nigga can't be serious." I mumbled to myself. I walked to my room and plopped on the bed. I sighed before barring my face in the pillow. I took a deeppp breath before screaming. My scream was muffled but still a bit loud. I released all my anger in the pillow. After I finally calmed down, I turned on my back and looked up to the ceiling. "Why my life gots to be like this?" I said. I shut my eyes and soon drifted off to sleep.

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End of the chapter:)