Inconceivable

FORTY-TWO

My breath hitched and eyes were still doing their duty, examining the vampire-being right under me.

Those foxy small eyes were enlarged at a point that I doubt if it could get any bigger. His lips were departed, heavy breaths escaping from there just like me.

His chest was going upwards and downwards, generally owing to the heavy inhalings and exhalings.

And his grip on my waist was still, holding me tight. Enough, not allowing me to move.

"Are you out of your mind?"- His voice sounded kinda like yelling or it may actually been a yell.

Finally putting me down sitten , beside him, he sat up and rested his arms on his knees.

" What were you doing?! "- another yell escapes from his mouth, now looking away from me disappointedly.

" Why did you save me?... "- I spoke what sounded more like mumbling which he managed to understand anyways.

Swiftly turning to me, he replied, " You're telling me I should have left you to die? "

"Why... Why do you always.. "- my sentence was blocked by the sobs emitting, refraining me from spitting anything.

Though my eyes were closed right then, helping the tears to travel their way down there, I sensed Yeonjun sharply sighing.

Then, I felt a hand on my head, softly stroking my hair . " Everything's gonna be alright.." That made me immediately look at him, not pleased by his action.

Harshly jerking off his hand, I almost barked out, "Answer me! Why? Why do you always interrupt?.. "

He was taken aback by my behavior, lowering down his hand back at its place on his lap.

"There wasn't any fault of yours.. "

"You're wrong! I- I'm the biggest problem in there, everything's just messed up just b-because of m-me!.. "

Hatred, guilt, insecurity filled me up as I harshly wiped off the tears from my face.

"I know how you're feeling.. But everything's gonna be fine, I swear. " - his voice was concerned and desperation wrapping around it.

"Nothing is gonna be alright! I don't deserve to be alive! I'm just a worthless-"

My words lost in its midway, as Yeonjun pulled me by both of my arms, in his warm embrace, entirely closing the distance between our bodies.

His chin rested on a side of my shoulder, while mine was puffed against his hard chest, almost blocking my breathing . Both of his arms wrapping around my waist like an octopus.

The tightness was comfortable, his embrace felt safe, I felt secure in there, and...

I'm doubting if I would regret later for being in his embrace.

I could not help returning the hug, a soft snif emits as I dig deep in his embrace. And one after another , uncountable sobs and sniffs emits.

"Why did you save me, Yeonjun? "- I managed to ask it again, too desperate to know as if my life depends on his answer.

He tightens his grip, maybe never wanting me to let go. Well, I kinda feel hesitated to admit that I am feeling like that too..and then, Yeonjun finally answers,

" You can't end your life just because you're hurt, betrayed or defeated today, there's a thing called tomorrow in which you don't know what's gonna happen, what the Almighty has planned, "

His voice felt too comfortable that I think it wasn't possible to sound more comforting than it. At this moment, I didn't want him to stop, I wanted him to speak more and more.