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Life isn't inherently hard, it's about understanding how to navigate it.
It's only when you let overthinking and negative thoughts take over, leading to stumbles and falls, that life can become challenging.
My life is halfly great... Kaso nga may mga naka tagong damdamin na hindi inaamin. Kaya siguro napuno at nawasak.
Sa tuwing may nag tatanong sakin ng 'Sure ka na ba diyan?', hindi ako agad nakakasagot.
Sure ba talaga ako sa mga plano ko? O plano ko ba talaga ito... Baka plano ng iba. I've been pursuing a dream with all my effort, but only now do I realize that I may have been chasing a path crafted by others.
It's other's dream, why am i working for it?
Being a valedictorian was a goal set by others who believe I can achieve it. I look up to my brother, who shares this same ambition.
I dreamed of becoming a Psychiatrist due to it being a dream of my mother's, rather than having a deep personal connection to the profession.
I paint because my father frequently praises my artistic abilities.
I joined quiz bees out of peer pressure from my classmates.
I conform to a prim and proper appearance to abide by my grandmother's request.
I did... I obeyed. I played and they played me. Hindi naman nila kasalanan kung attention seeker at uhaw sa compliments ako. It was all on me.
Life is hard for me because I chose to live it with others expectations.
The events earlier had left a heavy stillness in the air. There was a strong desire to address the matter, but my heart and mind remained firmly shut. I didn't want their sympathy or apologies. Nothing meaningful would come of it...it would only serve to open old wounds.
I left home without informing anyone. What difference would it make in their reaction? I went to my grandmother's rice field instead, where I found a spot to lie down. I brought something to serve as my makeshift bed. It was already afternoon, so the heat was no longer intense. Now, there's a pleasant breeze. The air is cool and soothing and provides me with a sense of peace and contentment.
Napaka luwag talaga ng corn field nina lola. Maganda at payapa, siguro malapit na itong e harvest.
I was feeling at peace when my phone suddenly beeped. I received a text message, and to my surprise, it was from Gray. I hadn't yet wished him a Merry Christmas because of everything that had happened.
'Where are you?'
Seen.
That was his message for me. Kumunot namna ang noo ko. I found it weird, maliban sa napaka straight to the point iyon... Parang hinahanap niya ako.
Should i reply kung nasaan ako? What could happen, right? Baka curious lang siya...or whatsoever. As if naman na kapag sinabi kong nasaan ako...pupunta siya.
'Nasa corn field ng lola ko. May tambayan rito, nagpapahangin ako. Bored nga eh, ikaw ba?'
Sent.
Iyon ang ni-replay ko. It's like a casual text from both past lovers.
I waited for his reply, but it seemed as though he had no intention of responding, so I put down my phone. I closed my eyes and took a nap.
I was awakened by the sound of my phone ringing. I fumbled for it and sat up, checking the caller ID in a lazy manner.
Sino ba--Oh, it's Gray.
Sinagot ko ito ng walang bahala. "Hi,Gray! Wassup?" Siniglahan ko talaga boses ko, medyo maayos na rin naman ang pakiramdam ko dahil naka idlip ako.
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