The Secret Of Us

fourteen

Sara wanted to keep me in the clinic overnight, and she left Travis and I alone with Clover once she'd checked both me and the baby over. It was nice to be alone just the three of us, to watch Travis walk Clover around the room, rocking her, kissing her forehead, talking quietly to her. 

I sat cross legged on the circular bed, watched as Travis peppered little kisses over Clover's face. He absolutely doted on her, and I was entranced by the sight of him settling into father hood. Of course she was his baby. Matty never would have deserved to have this perfect angel as his daughter. 

"We're going to take you home soon." Travis crooned to our daughter, walking her around the room with one of her fists wrapped around one of his giant fingers. "Yes we are." He nuzzled their noses together. "And your mommy and I are going to love you so, so much little baby girl." I smiled to myself, taking another drink of water. "You are our little angel you know." He murmured, swaying gently as he pressed another kiss to Clover's forehead. "I love you so much baby girl." 

Then Travis looked at me, noticing the teary, adoring expression on my face. He smiled, bringing Clover to me and sitting down. I leaned against his shoulder, gazing down at our little bundle of joy who cooed up at me, blinking with her different colored eyes. God I loved her eyes. Travis and I were both a part of her, visually as well as biologically. She was perfect.

"Hi my baby girl." I whispered, reaching to let her wrap her fingers around one of mine. "Yeah, I'm your mommy." I kissed her hand. "I love you so so much my beautiful angel."

"You're such a good mom Bug." Travis told me, and I looked up to see him gazing at me tenderly. "You deserve this." 

"I love you." I told him.

"I love you." He kissed me lightly. 

Clover fell asleep soon after, breathing softly in Travis' arms. I held her for a while, lying her down on my chest and stroking her soft blonde hair. But eventually I decided I really needed a shower, and I asked Travis to move her into the tiny cot they had for her. He took her and made sure to swaddle her properly in the cot before turning to me.

"Do you want me to help you shower?" He asked.

"Yes please." I said timidly, taking both of his hands.

Travis helped me to my feet, taking most of my weight as I walked slowly over to the bathroom. I felt so damn exhausted, and I was grateful to find that there was a shower seat which Travis helped me to sit down on. He met my gaze and I gave him a little nod, so he started easing my clothes off. I lifted my limbs when I could to help him, and he folded my clothes into the corner of the bathroom. He'd kept the bathroom door open so that we could still see Clover, and my eyes were trained on the sleeping baby as Travis turned turn shower on. He angled it away from me as it warmed up, testing the temperature on my hand to make sure it was okay.

"Okay Bug, just lean back." Travis told me. I nodded, shifting back a little on the seat as he let the water slip over my body. It felt so damn good and I sighed, my eyes closing. "Oh Bug you're so exhausted." Travis touched my cheek tenderly and I nodded, too tired to even open my eyes again.

Travis helped me to shower very carefully, rubbing my sore feet, taking extra care everywhere that I was in pain. Once he'd dried me off, he got a nursing bra, some post birth pads, and even stuck them into my maternity underwear for me. I almost started to cry as he helped me into one of his shirt and some sweatpants before taking me back to bed.

"There you go Bug, you can rest now." Travis told me as I lay down, and he tucked the blankets around me. "I'm so proud of you." He murmured, pressing his lips to my temple.

"Will you lay with me?" I mumbled, unable to drift off in the bed alone.

"Of course." Travis nodded. "I'll get changed okay?" I nodded, my eyes drifting closed as he moved off.