Falling for Novogratz

Chapter 19

" Please don't shut me out Sadie.. Just talk to me, please. " He says pleading.

I sigh in defeat. I quickly walk to the fridge to grab Toffee's kibble. I grab his bowl, scoop his kibble out of the bag and wait for him to sit before I give him his dinner.

He purrs as he's eating, making me chuckle.

I look up to where Wolfgang is standing and force a small smile on my lips. I make my way over to him and motion to my couch.

" Let's have a seat. If you want to talk, I want it to be in a comfortable and safe space. " I explain as I nod my head towards the couch.

He nods in agreement and I take a seat on one corner, as he takes his on the opposite side, getting some distance between us. It feels like a double edged sword. On one side I'm happy he wants to give me my space, but on the other hand I want nothing more than for him to hold me in his arms.

I clap my hands together, gathering all my strenght. " Okay, you want to talk, so let's talk. " I say in a determined voice.

He nods in agreement. " Okay, how do you want to start this? We'll go about this how you want to. " 

I take a deep breath and think about it for a split second. Then it comes to me. " Question and an answer for a question and an answer. Brutal honesty. You ask me a question, I give you a brutally honest answer, and you'll do the same in return. " I explain as clearly as I can.

He nods. " Sure. I'll let you start. Ask me anything. " He shrugs.

I think about what to ask him without sounding like a total crazy bitch.

" Let's start easy. How many women have you been with? " I say, getting red in my face. Oh yeah, I went there. And that's what I call 'starting easy'? What's wrong with me?

He coughs, clearly not expecting me to come out with it as abruptly as I did.

He scratches the back of his head in .. shame? " You'll have to be more specific Sadie, how many women I have been in a relationship with, or how many women have I slept with? Because those are two very different answers. " He says looking at me straight in the eyes.

My eyes widen in surprise. Well, this is my own fault, own up to it Séverine.

I clear my throat. " Uhm.. I'm interested in knowing both answers. "

He fixes his posture and takes a deep breath. " Ooookay then.. I have been in 7 relationships in total. " He starts off. I nod in understanding, making it clear to give me the second answer also.

He clears his throat. " And I have, wel not really slept with, but been to bed with nineteen, I think? " His face gets red at the end of that sentence.

I look at him with wide eyes. " Oh, Okay. You've been busy. " I say and regret it almost immediately after the words left my mouth. Séverine, you should really think twice about things before you speak.

I facepalm myself. Yes, actual facepalm. I look up at him with a sorry look on my face. " I'm so sorry Wolfie, that got out before I knew it. I'm sorry. "

He chuckles and grins, his dimples showing. " It's okay. I agreed on brutal honesty, so I guess brutally honest reactions are going to be a part of it. " He shrugs.

He shifts on the couch and moves his sitting position so he'd be facing me. " My turn. "

I do the same and turn to face him. " Go ahead. " I shrug.

A smirk creeps up his face. " Okay, you know what, same thing. I guess it's only fair. How many men have you been with? Both relationship and slept with."