Adopted by Harry Styles

seventeen

"Alright Harry," the interviewer spoke as I looked at him in the eye, "is it alright to speak about Autumn?"

"Of course," I spoke as I wiped my hands on my jeans as I straightened up.

"How is she?"

She's dying asshole, you're going to ask me that?

"She's having a hard time, I won't lie," I said, "but she's being as strong as she can."

"And how are you?"

Again, did you really ask me how I was? My daughter is damn dying, asshole.

"I'm not doing great, but not poorly either. But, I've got a great group of mates and my family and a few others there for me. I couldn't be more blessed."

"Alright, away from Autumn for now. Who is this?" He asked as a picture popped up on the screen next to us.

It was three pictures, not just one. The first one was me following Danielle out into the rain, her hand in mine. The second, was my hand on her cheek as I leaned in to kiss her. The third, was the picture of me kissing her in the rain.

I looked backstage and she stood there, nodding, which told me it was okay to tell. I smiled, looking back at the curious man in front of me.

"She's my girlfriend."

//

"You know," Dani spoke as we sat on the couch as it rained outside, "if you weren't ready to say we were in a relationship you didn't have to."

"I was ready if you were," I spoke softly as Autumn slept in my lap.

"When does she go back?" she asked quietly.

"Tomorrow, before we go to Brazil tomorrow night."

We leave for the South American part of the tour tomorrow. She's getting a larger amount of chemo done tomorrow, which is going to take a larger toll on her.

"Do you need me there? I'm packed, my bag is in the car. I can be there," Danielle spoke as I looked at her.

I nodded, "I'll need someone."

She gave me a small smile and kissed my cheek, "I'm your someone."

//

"We're ready to start," the doctor spoke as I held Autumn's hand as she laid on the bed.

Danielle's hand went to the back of my neck as she played with my hair, which helped me keep my cool.

They started the process and then left, waiting for the chemo to do its magic. She gripped my hand tighter and I saw the tears in her eyes.

"Autumn, do you want to watch cartoons with Dani?" Danielle spoke as she noticed the tears in my eyes too.

Autumn looked at me and I spoke, "You can sweetheart. Its okay."

Autumn looked back at Danielle and nodded. She moved over in the bed and Dani slipped her boots off, leaving her in socks.

Before she laid down with my daughter, Dani kissed my head and spoke, "Go calm down. If she sees you cry, she'll cry more. Go get a coffee or something to calm you, okay?"

I nodded and she laid down and I left the room.

I came back with two coffees, but when I walked in the door both girls were asleep.

I smiled weakly, taking a quick photo and posting it.

@harrystyles : my girls.

//

"Autumn, let daddy in," I spoke as I knocked on the door.

We were on the airplane and everyone was asleep. Autumn and I were too, but she got up and ran to the bathroom and I heard her getting sick.

"Leave daddy," she spoke.

I rested my forehead against the door and spoke softly, "Now you know I can't do that cutie pie."

"I'm not cute!" She spoke loudly as I heard something fall.

"Autumn, let me in now," I spoke sternly.

"I'm too ugly, daddy."

How does a two year old break a twenty-one year olds heart?

"You, Autumn Caroline, are beautiful. Now open the door."

The door cracked open and I opened it all the way and shut it behind me. She had taken her bandana off and she had bags under her eyes.

"See daddy! I'm not cute!" She said as tears left her small, dull, tired eyes.

I sat down and put her in my lap, "You are beautiful in my eyes. That is all that matters, okay?"

She looked up at me and nodded.

"Daddy loves you, did you know that?" I spoke quietly as I put her bandana in my sweatpants pocket, not feeling the need to put it back on her.

I didn't get an answer. Well, I did, but it was small snores.

I got up and carried Autumn back to where we were sleeping.

"Daddy loves you so much, beautiful."