The Ace's Revenge

Chapter 11: Trauma Dumping After Waking Up (Mari)

“O-oh.”

Willow had been moving and mumbling in her sleep all night. I was scared for her too, I mean what else would I feel for her? We're all traumatized yeah. We were all hurt and had our own demons but this was concerning.

“Hey? Savie??” I asked slowly. Still laying in the bed waiting for her to wake up, I felt very, Very bad for her.

“Yeah Mar?” (Shortened name for mari) He asked me as he sat up in bed.

"Do you think she is okay?” I said it in the way you could tell I was talking about Willow. "She keeps moving around and is talking like she is having a nightmare or something bad in her sleep.”

It  was true I was scared for her and felt really bad. "Maybe she is having a bad dream or something. It's normal to see a past like ours…” His explanation made sense. I just didn't want to believe him at this moment.

“Maybe or it's a bad flashback…” I said back. Sure I was the type of person to worry a lot… So maybe I felt bad because of that?

That's when Willow groaned. I looked over, I got up and gently shook her and she jumped up, clearly just waking up.

“Mason? M-mase-oh. O-oh. Shoot.” She mumbled, now I was confused and concerned. She looked horrible and hurt.

“Who is mason?” I asked gently, trying to show where we were without saying it.

“M-my best friend before he- the raid. I-” I could tell she was having a hard time and a bad panic attack creeping in. I tried to soothe her as I rubbed her back and gently held her.

“It's okay. I understand Willow, we all lost a lot that day-” I started and got yelled at.

“No! You don't get it! I- We were something and he died! I-in my arms he died…” She snapped back as I froze.

“Oh my gods, I am so- SO sorry…” I said quietly as I hugged her tightly and held her in my arms. That must've been hard, really hard on her.

“Are you okay then Willow?” Savie asked, he was always wary because of me. I sighed as I felt her shaking, she was crying. I had never seen anything like this. The sadness and pain. What did she do to deserve this??

“Yeah… Just a little overwhelmed over it all…” She seemed hurt. She was definitely lying to me.

“You don't need to lie to the kid” Lillith said when she walked into our room. We all were just chilling in there now. Willow silently crying in the corner whenever I tried to check on her but she brushed it off.

“You know I lost my brother to the raid…” Patricia started. “He was a soldier if Kiharn…” She went into explanation about her brother. I felt bad, I had never lost a sibling…

“What was his name?” Willow asked quietly, I saw she had a book but I didn't know what was in it, nor did I want to.

“Patrick. He was 13,” She sounded hurt too. I wanted to just hug them to get the pain over with. They didn't deserve this. Nobody did.

“Mason was 11.” She explained, who is mason? I didn't ask. I assumed it was personal so.

She eventually went back to crying and I went quiet. Maybe we weren't leaving today but tomorrow. Willow cried herself to sleep, Savie dozed too, nobody had wanted to leave to get food so, more sleep couldn't hurt… Plus it was a good idea to get it before we couldn't.

Lillith and her girlfriend went back to sleep in their room. I went to sleep in the one I shared with my brother and Willow. I just laid there. Staring into the ceiling. It was weird. I never liked people much, that was mostly from trauma, Willow was the hope I needed to move on. I didn't know if I knew or not though. I watched it until I dozed.

Life was quiet for once, I would be able to sleep for longer. I didn't expect the mood to drop so much but it was a refreshing feeling to actually relate to the group seeing the ways Axel affected us all. I hated him though. He ruined my home and entire life. I was seven. He raided us, our people and killed my family.

Savie was cuddled up to me in the bed and Willow was still shaking and sobbing as she cuddled a plus animal or something to her chest. I had never seen her like this before. She kept apologizing to the item. Like it was alive or something, then it seemed like something was talking to her. She kept crying. Was she okay? Did I need to check on her?

Eventually I went over to her.

“Are you okay?” I asked gently not to scare her away. I felt horrible for her past.

“No. I-I probably could have tried to save him…” She kept saying ‘him’ or ‘why him?’ I needed to know who this guy was.

“Who?” I asked back, my tone making my curiosity known.

“My best friend mason. Savie kinda reminds me of him, the way he is always here for us, the way he keeps up the morale without realizing, just he’s the reason I haven't gone insane on this quest yet. We've been at it for a good week so it makes sense he is our only hope of peace. Gods I wish I wasn't so dependent on something and someone. A memory who faded with the flames. Please tell me you actually see me as a friend? That this isn't a cruel joke of the world.” She ranted out, I had never seen someone so honest about Savie. It made so much sense.

“I swear it.” I said truth and honesty only now. She hugged me tightly, I felt this was me being a lifeline for a bit so I hugged back.

“I see you and him as family, ya know? It's stupid how this dumb world works…” Her words held a familial tone that I needed.

“I see you like a sister to Willow,” We both laid there for a while before Willow fell asleep. She looked so at peace, I felt so, so bad for her. She didn't deserve any of the raid, nobody deserved to die that day.

A/N
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I love trauma dumping as Willow. So for you all who don't know Willow is based of me, Lillith is based off one of my best friends, Mari, Savie and we're getting close to more based on my friends. I do this intentionally since I write things people can relate to!!

Now please have a good day, eat some food and don't do drugs kids. Bye!!