I hastily made the short drive to Olivia's hotel. Quickly parking my bike, removing my helmet. I caught the skin of my neck in the clasp. It stung like a bitch. I reached up and ran my fingers over the wound. I managed to draw blood. I dismissed the pain grabbing my bag and made my way inside. The warmth rushing over me.
I got the to elevator and hesitantly pushed the button. Was I making the right decision here? This girl is fragile and I don't exactly have the best track record. But I'm here now. I haven't felt like this in a while. I missed having a extra spring in your step from being so happy because you knew somebody else was there for you. It sounds silly and naive I know. But that's how she made me feel. I felt utterly lost in her company. In a good way. Lost from the cruel world around us. From the press who make me out to be who I'm not. From the record label pressurising me to produce this gold dust. Which I'm not always capable of. Even the rest of the band sometimes. Don't get me wrong i love those lads and would happily take a bullet for them. But sometimes I feel like they all depend on me. I don't feel any of these things when I'm with Liv. I feel like a normal person. With no responsibilities. Free to do as I please.
The ding from the elevator arriving pulled me from my thoughts. I stepped inside and pressed the button. A quiet humming filled my ears as I travelled upwards.
My hand hovered in a fist about to knock on her door. Am I doing the right thing? The right thing for her? This girl is so exceptional. She deserves so much. Could I give it to her? I shook these thoughts away and knocked on the door. I heard muffled scuttling from the other side. Olivia opened the door in her skimpy pjs and a glass of red wine in her hand.
"Sorry but I started without you. But there's still plenty left. Here I'll pour you a glass." She trailed of as she made her way back into the room. I followed her in. Dumping my bag in the chair beside her bed.
"Errr thanks. Why are we drinking?"
The chugging sound of the wine leaving the bottle and hitting the glass filled the silence between us.
"Why would we not be drinking?"
"It's a Tuesday Olivia that's why." I took a sip of my drink setting it down on the table. Unlike Olivia who continued to chug her's down.
"So that means nothing to me."
"Right. Okay so you sure nothing's wrong?" She just laughed at me. I awkwardly joined in a little confused. "What's so funny?"
"See the thing that is wrong is standing right in front of me. I'm falling for a guy who I've pushed into the arms of another woman. Who thinks he's a genuine guy and likes her." She continued to laugh whilst she refilled her glass.
"What are you talking about Olivia?"
"I'm talking about Arielle. She texted me after I got off the phone to you. She texted me to say thanks for hooking her up with such a great guy. I mean how great is that?" She took another large sip from her glass.
"Olivia stop." I took the gentle snatch glass from her hand. She struggled with me for a while not wanting me to take it. She gave in after awhile and set it down beside my own.
"Why?" Her voice high pitched. Tears began to prick her eyes.
"Because you're not making sense."
"Let me brake it down for you. We can not do this. That poor girl had no idea what we are doing to her. I can't do that to her...... I.... I....I'm not that kind of person Alex." She began waving her hands about as she spoke. Trying so hard not to cry stumbling over her own words. She looked like a wild animal caught in headlights. I closed space between us. Placing my hands in her shoulders. I just wanted to shake them and for her to snap out of this. But I know I couldn't. It would only make matters worse. But she wouldn't stop talking and panic had taken over her voice so I just smacked her lips on mine to shut her up. She resisted at first but soon relaxed into it. Soon she returned my kiss.
We pulled back from each other's embrace. Her hands were still shaking. I hugged her tight to my chest. Stroking her hair, holding her tightly against my body. She wrapped her arms around my torso. "It's all going to be okay." I whispered into her hair. Burying my face there taking in the sweet scent of her shampoo. Her silky soft hair against my face. It just felt so right to have her in my arms. So I promised myself I would never met her fall into anybodies arms but mine from now on. I wasn't going to let this girl go. Not now not ever.
"Come on let's get some sleep. You look exhausted" I crest my thumb across her cheek. Her big green eyes looking up at me. She nodded wiping the remainder of her almost dried tears with the back of her hand. Her eyes caught sight of the cut in my neck.
"What happened?" She ran her fu gets over the small wound. I winced a little pulling back from her touch.
"It's nothing, I caught it on the clasp of my helmet that's all. Come on let's go to bed. Really it's nothing."
We crawled into bed together. Olivia snuggling into my arms. I wrapped them around her, with her back against my front. We watched the busy city in front of us. The thick windows blocking out the sound as if it was on mute. Liv soon fell asleep but I couldn't. I watch the city lights go out one by one. The thoughts of our very fucked up situation spiralling around in my head, I finally fell asleep. My sleeping body next to hers. I like how sleeping next to someone means more than sex. Sometimes, the body's way of saying I trust you to be by my side at the my most vulnerable time. You have no defences when you sleep. You tell no lies. You are innocent.
// short chapter sorry but I want to get things moving on in the story. Any feedback would be great. I definitely want to know how you think the story is going so far? I'm sorry if it's awful but I'm just getting back into writing again. Thank you for all your support! \\
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