Almost Everything

Chapter 37

I step into his room, biting my lower lip at the sight of him. I was nervous to say the least. I was relieved to see he was a reflection of my nervous self. He stood on the opposite side of the room. His eyes fixed on me and then dropping to the floor. We stood in silence, I opened my mouth to say something but nothing would come out. I looked at Alex, thankfully he took the burden from me and broke the silence.
"Thank you, for calling. It means a lot." He voice was small and full of remorse.
"To be honest I didn't think I would. I didn't think I could." I whispered back at him.
"What are you talking about?" He questioned me.
"I just.... I didn't know if I could. I didn't know if we were the same.." he cut me off before I could finish.
"You can always call me. Call me in the middle of the night, call me with tears in your eyes, call me with a smile on your lips. Call me whenever you feel like it, whenever you want to talk, whenever you need someone to listen. Just call me. Hearing you breathe on the other side and knowing you're there is enough."
I smiled at him. He always knew what to say. He may not always show it but this man loves me. He loves me with his whole heart and he's broken with what he's done to me. So I just say what he needs to hear because he's hurting too. I don't want to hurt a man I love this much.
"If you promise to stay, I promise to never leave" I spoke clearly, looking into his deep warm coffee coloured eyes. God I've missed them.
"I promise you one hundred times over.." hearing him say that I couldn't resist but to lunged across the room into his arms. Burying myself into him. Taking his scent in, breathing in as deep as I possible could.
"I am so sorry Liv, I was just so blinded by anger. I'm just feeling so lost and I don't know how to fix it."
"Hey, look at me," I cupped his face with my hands pulling his face closer to mine. " it's okay. I am coming to terms with the fact that loving someone requires a leap of faith, and that a soft landing is never guaranteed." I gently pressed my lips to his.
"I've missed you so much. I'm trying."
"I know you are." I kissed him again. Placing my head on his chest, listening to the slow and steady beat of his heart. Trying to match my heart rate to his.
Alex broke the silence after a while "I promise to learn from my mistakes" I squeezed him tighter.
"Come on you need to get to sound check for tonight." I pulled away from our embrace. Looking up at him lovingly, I slipped my hand through his and gave it a squeeze.
"We're gonna be okay aren't we Liv? I mean we're gonna get over this aren't we?"
"I don't see my future without Alex, and you know that."

// I haven't updated in forever but I was really bored so I just wrote this in like 10mins.... sorry it's awful \\