Almost Everything

Chapter 31

***  CONTAINS SOME SEXUAL CONTENT ***

** OLIVIA'S P.O.V **

My eyes glued to the door whilst I waited for him to arrive. I couldn't help but feel uneasy about the whole situation. The small black velvet box sat on the table in front of me. It taunted me, just sitting there. The sound of the lock unclicking pulled me from my thoughts. I looked up to see a very tired looking Louis.

"Hi, sorry I'm late things at the office ran late. I won't be long. I'll just grab everything and chuck it in the car."

"Louis its fine honestly there is no rush. If you want I can make you a tea or coffee? You take as long as you need."

"Thanks." He almost said it bitterly. He hadn't even looked at me this whole time. My stomach was tying itself in knots.

"Louis, please. I'm trying here, I don't want things to end badly here."

"Olivia let's be honest you didn't try. Not with me, you only tried with him. I loved you with my whole heart, worshiped the ground you walked on. And he? What did he do? String you along until the time to have a relationship was right for him. When he had finished with his previous whore. Be honest with me."

"Louis, please this isn't you. I know that I hurt you and I can't justify what I did. But please believe me when I tell you it really wasn't like that. I did love you. And I made Alex date Arielle, so that I wouldn't get involved with him." I argued with him. He didn't see that this is as much my fault as Alex's.

"I don't believe, if you loved him, why did you make him date someone else?" he questioned.

"Because I was scared of my feelings for Alex. I knew that the way I felt for him would be at the detriment of my work and the band. I didn't want that. I also I wasn't ready for a relationship with anybody. I needed some time to recover from everything in my past." I trailed of not wanting to go into much detail.

"Recover from what. Do you see what I mean, you never speak to me. Our relationship was never honest. I bet he knows exactly what you're talking about. Olivia how is this been fair on me? I know it looks like I'm playing the victim here but all I want is the truth." His voice was brittle. His eyes dead. He looked so lost and this broke my heart. I glanced at the clock above his head, I was supposed to be going Alex's for dinner in about an hour. I shook my head dismissing the thought of Alex, now was not the time nor the place.

"Louis, the truth is, I love you. I still very much love you but my love for you is different from my love for him. It's hard to put into words. I loved every minute that we spent together. You love made me feel, warm, comforted and safe. But his is just makes me feel so alive. Like I said it's not like I don't love you it's just..." but he cut me off before I had time to finish my sentence.

"You just love him more." I hung my head once I heard those words leave his lips, because it was the truth I've just never admitted it before now. Once I didn't say anything he carried on. "Right, I get it. I'll pack my things and go. I'll leave my key on the table, so you can go now."

I went to walk past him, his hand grabbing my arm gently. I looked at him in the eyes, he was so broken and it kills me knowing that I did that. "Olivia where is it? The ring...." He asked almost in a whisper. I just stared at the small black box on the table as my response. Snatching my arm back, I grabbed my coat and my keys, leaving the apartment slamming the door on the way out as I left.

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"You seem distant tonight love, what's up?" Alex asked as we sat on the settee with his arm wrapped around me pulling me closer as we watched some film. I had no idea what it was about, I wasn't paying much attention to it. I leaned in closer into him, trying to show that I wasn't distant from him, but he was right. I can't stop replaying everything that's happened with Louis. Not just what happened tonight but our whole relationship, all the happy times we had shared together. I was still struggling with the fact that I had admitted not only to him that I loved Alex more than I had loved Louis, but to myself. "Tell me what's on your mind love." He said in his gruff, thick northern accent.

"It's nothing just work. Just thinking about fitting all the dates in and stuff for the tour, that's all." I replied quickly. It was a lie but in the back of my mind I was worried about fitting all the dates for the tour but it wasn't the biggest thing on my mind right now.

"Love, if you're worried about me going on tour and leaving you here. You shouldn't because all I'll be doing is missing you and playing a show a couple of nights a week. And I was thinking that you should come on tour with the lads and me anyway. I mean Collin came on the tours with us most of the time so I was thinking you should come to."

"Alex, baby I'm not worried about that all." I sat up and climbed over him so I was straddling his lap. I cupped his face with my hands. "You know that I trust you?"

"I know you do, but I just want you to know that I love you. And I would never doing anything to jeopardize our relationship. It has taken to long for us to be together and I know that we have to take baby steps, otherwise it all becomes too much for you. But I can't not say it anymore. Olivia Grant I love you and I am going to tell you this every day for the rest of your life no matter what. You don't have to say it back if you're not ready yet but just know that I love you." He said, hanging his head after he spoke the last bit. He didn't think I was going to say it back because I wasn't ready. I took a deep breath, I lifted his head looking at him in the eyes.

"Alex, today I gave Louis back all of his stuff. I gave back the ring and I admitted to him and myself that I love you more than I could ever love him. I love you more than I have ever loved anyone else and I'm not scared to admit that anymore." I whispered back to him.

I leant in closer, brushing lips against his. I ran my hands through his soft hair, my fingers gliding through it. Placing my hands on the back of his neck. I began to tug on his bottom lip teasing him, as I wiggled my hips on his lap. I could feel him beginning to get flustered from all my attention. His hands found my waist, cupping my hips he began to move me to his own rhythm, sliding over me over his crouch. Back and forth. A small moan escaped my lips as he lifted my shirt at waist, his hands cool hands touching my hot skin.

"The thing I'm going to miss most is doing this you know," he whispered on my ear, as he gently bite down on it, sending shiver up my spine. He flipped my round so my back was to his front, pulling my backwards so my body leant against his. His hands traveling down the front of my body, over my breasts, he stopped momentarily to cup them both, whilst still softly nipping at my ear. His hands moved down lower at a steady pace till he reached the hem of my skirt. He paused, softly dragging his index finger along my skin just above my skirt. I let out a small moan again encouraging him to go further. "You like that?" he whispers in my ear.

"mhhmm" I reply. I couldn't form a sentence my mind losing control over my actions from his touch. He slipped one of his hands beneath the hem of my skirt whilst the other travelled up my shirt, under my bra, brushing over my hard nipple, before he came back to it to tease it. His other hand brushing against the hem if my knickers.

"I think we should take this to the bedroom, I don't want to stain this settee." He said before abruptly removing both of his hands. My jaw dropping how he's just left me high and dry. I turn back around to face him. His smug expression says it all.

"Well then, we best be getting to the bedroom otherwise I won't be able to show you what I'll be missing the most." I slid my hand over his rock hard crouch, whilst leaving wet sloppy kisses across his neck. Two can play at this game I thought.

// Hey! Sorry it took so long I'm just so busy but I'm determined to keep this story going! I dunno what happened here I didn't want it to go all soppy again where the say they love each other but I didn't want it just to be about sex so I did a bit of both. Hope you enjoyed it! Sorry it's awful but I wrote most of this at 3 am.....\\