The Right Kind of Wrong

42. Emotional Struggles

The aftermath of Savi's confrontation with Bhavani weighed heavily on her heart. She had stood her ground, resolute and unyielding in her choice to pursue her dreams. But as the adrenaline faded, a different feeling emerged—doubt. Sitting in her room, surrounded by books and notes for her IAS preparations, she felt the pressure mounting. Could she really do this?

The evening sun poured in through the window, casting a warm glow, but it did little to lighten the heaviness in her chest. Savi stared blankly at her study material, the words blurring together as her mind raced with thoughts.

What if Bhavani was right? What if her dreams led her down a path of loneliness and failure? Savi shook her head, trying to dispel the negative thoughts. She had fought too hard to let doubt creep in now.

Later that evening, Savi met Rajat at their usual café. She arrived early, her heart racing as she took a seat at a small table in the corner. She fiddled with her pen, deep in thought. Rajat soon walked in, his usual bright smile faltering slightly when he noticed her distant expression.

"Hey," he said, sliding into the seat across from her. "You look... pensive."

"Just thinking," Savi replied, forcing a smile that didn't quite reach her eyes.

"About Badi Aaji?" Rajat asked gently, his voice laced with concern.

Savi nodded, feeling the weight of her decision settle over her again. "Yeah. I stood up to her, but now I'm questioning everything."

Rajat leaned forward, his expression earnest. "What do you mean?"

"I feel like I've put everything on the line—my family, my future, my relationship with you. What if I can't balance it all?" Savi admitted, her voice trembling slightly.

"You don't have to carry all that weight by yourself," Rajat said, reaching across the table to take her hand. "You're not alone in this. We're in it together."

Savi looked down at their intertwined fingers, finding comfort in his warmth. "I don't want to drag you into my mess. You have your own responsibilities and exams coming up."

"That's the thing," Rajat replied, squeezing her hand. "I want to be here for you. I want you to lean on me when it gets tough. It doesn't mean you're weak; it means you trust me."

Savi felt tears prick at her eyes, and she blinked them away. "I'm scared, Rajat. What if I fail? What if I lose everything?"

"You won't fail," he assured her, his voice steady and reassuring. "You're one of the strongest people I know. It's okay to feel uncertain, but don't let that uncertainty stop you from chasing your dreams."

His words resonated within her, but the emotional turmoil still swirled in her mind. "It's just... I've always felt this pressure to succeed, especially after everything with my family. I don't want to disappoint them, but I also can't keep living for them."

"I get it. But disappointing them doesn't mean you're failing," Rajat said, his tone serious. "You have to live for yourself, Savi. You owe it to yourself to try."

Savi nodded slowly, feeling a mix of gratitude and sadness. "I want to, but it's hard to let go of their expectations. I've always been the good granddaughter, the obedient one."

"And now you're becoming the brave one," Rajat said softly. "That's something to be proud of. It's okay to be scared. It's okay to struggle. But don't let that hold you back from what you really want."

"Sometimes I wish I could just be free of all this," Savi admitted, her voice barely above a whisper.

"You will be. Just take it one step at a time," Rajat said, his eyes filled with understanding. "You're allowed to feel everything you're feeling. It's all part of the journey."

Savi took a deep breath, feeling a sense of relief in opening up to him. "Thank you for listening. I didn't know how much I needed to say all of that."

"Anytime," Rajat replied, a gentle smile returning to his face. "Let's make a deal: we'll tackle our challenges together. You help me with my law prep, and I'll help you with your studies. We can make it a study date."

"Deal," Savi said, her heart lifting a little at the thought. "But what about the gossip? The pressures from our classmates?"

Rajat shrugged, unbothered by the potential drama. "Let them talk. We know what we have, and that's what matters. Plus, the more time we spend together, the more they'll get used to it."

Savi couldn't help but smile at his confidence. "You make it sound easy."

"That's because I know we can handle it," he replied, his voice light. "Now, let's order something. I need fuel for all that studying we're going to do."

They spent the next hour talking, laughter bubbling between them as they ordered their favorite drinks and snacks. The warmth of Rajat's presence made Savi feel safe, slowly easing the turmoil in her heart.

As they finished their meal, Rajat leaned back in his chair, looking at her with a playful glint in his eyes. "So, what's our first study date going to be? I'm thinking intense law debates and civil procedure discussions."

Savi chuckled, rolling her eyes. "I was thinking more like basic notes and shared snacks, but sure, let's throw in some intense debates."

"Perfect! I'll bring my 'intense law student' game face," Rajat said, putting on a mock serious expression that made her laugh.

As they left the café, hand in hand, Savi felt a renewed sense of determination. Yes, the path ahead would be challenging, and her emotions might continue to ebb and flow. But with Rajat beside her, she believed she could navigate the complexities of family, relationships, and her dreams.

That evening, as they walked through the busy streets of Mumbai, Savi felt lighter, ready to face whatever came next. And for the first time in a long while, she embraced the uncertainty of her future with open arms, knowing that she didn't have to go through it alone.

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