the Skinwalker (stranger things fanfiction)

Part 19

A few moments later I was sitting on one of the benches, in the corner of the class.

That image, the image of Barbara, dead before my eyes still consuming every piece of my mind. I hid that feeling, like I was used to, but... this time I couldn't forget it. I had seen many people die, even in worse ways than this time, but seeing Nancy break, tears staining her face...

It broke me too.

I had it coming though, I always thought about the families of those dead people, the impact on those people, the people who cared about them, the people they would talk to, the people who knew them.
But now I saw it, right before my eyes, the effect of a person dying.

I knew I had nothing to complain about. I hadn't known Barbara, but for some reason, I felt like I did.

Someone sat down beside me. I looked up, into Jonathan's dark brown eyes. 

"Hi." I said, in a neutral tone.

"Hello"

A silence fell between us. 

"They left to Castle Byers" 

I was confused: "huh?"

"Hopper and my mom." 

"okay. Where's Nancy?" I said, doing my absolute best not to show him how deep I cared.

"In the hall... I- She's not doing well..." Jonathan answered.

I stood up, sighing. "Come with me."

Jonathan nodded and walked after me. On our way to the hall, I saw Eleven with the boys. The big P.E. classroom where I had found Will and.... 

FORGET IT. my mind screamed at me.

I turned away, sighing. I looked over at Jonathan, who was still walking behind me as we entered the hall. 

I saw Nancy hudled up against a wall. I froze, that image suddenly in my head again. Jonathan walked from behind me, up to Nancy. I felt like my feet were stuck to the ground, I coudn't walk closer, I couldn't even move. 

Jonathan sat down beside her. they talked. I wanted to join. I couldn't, no, no, absolutely not. It would... god I didn't know what it would do to me al I knew was that I couldn't break, that never happened, and I trusted it never would. I just needed to stay still, not say a word. 

Jonathan stood up, offering Nancy his hand and he pulled her up, they walked toward me.

"Sam? Wanna come, we're gonna kill the... thing."

My eyes widened in surprise, my head screamed "NO, you're gonna get yourselves killed" but my voice had other plans. 

"yeah, sure"

I internally rolled my eyes at my stupid self. Nany motionened me to come with them. I sighed and followed them.