slytherin boys react - II

mattheo riddle: being obsessed with each other

your diary
october 10,

mattheo makes everything else look dull, like he's all i'll ever need. there's something there that no one else has dared to see, but i can. i pull it out of him, and he lets me. and the best part? he doesn't hide it. when i look at him, i know he's mine in ways no one else could ever be. no one else would even dare to try. i love him.

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mattheo's diary
12th oct.

she says she loves me, but i know it's more. she doesn't understand yet, but i'll show her. i'd cut through anyone who stands in the way. she tries to keep pieces of herself, but i'm not sure why. she belongs with me, every part of her. she doesn't need friends, family, or anyone else. they're just distractions. i'll tear away every distraction until it's just us, just like it should be. she's all i have, and i don't need anything else.

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mattheo's diary
14th oct.

i can't stop thinking about today. she fixed my collar, and it hit me hard. the way she did it made me feel like she really cares. i love her so much. i love her. every time she touches me, even in the smallest ways, it feels so fucking good. i can't believe she put that much thought into something so simple. it means everything to me. i love her. i love her. i love how she looked at me when she fixed it, like i was the only person in the world. i love her for that. i love her for all the little things she does. i love her more than i can say. i love her. i love her. i love her. she's everything to me.

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your diary
october 16,

i talked to someone else today and watched his eyes go dark the second he noticed. it was just a test, but he reacted perfectly. he dragged me aside, voice low and full of warning, and i loved every second of it. i knew he'd do something reckless. later, i saw the cut above his eye and bruised knuckles. he didn't say much, but he didn't have to. he got into a fight for me, and he wore the pain like a badge, like proof that he'd ruin himself if it meant keeping me close.

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mattheo's diary
16th oct.

she knew exactly what she was fucking doing when she talked to that stupid guy today. i saw it in her eyes. it's like she wants to see how far i'll go, to see if i'd break for her. and maybe i would. when i saw him standing too close, it was like something snapped. i didn't even think, i just went for him, fists flying before he could even react. by the time he hit the ground, i felt it, that satisfaction, like i'd won something. when i came back to her, bruised and bleeding, i could see the pride in her eyes. the look in her eyes, she loved it. i love making her feel that way.

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your diary
october 17,

he caught me staring at his bruises today. there was something so satisfying in the way he looked at me, like he was waiting for my approval, like he wanted me to see what he'd do for me. and maybe he knows it already, that he's the only one who could make me feel this. but i need him to feel the same desperation i do, need to be his whole world, to see him bend and break if it means i stay by his side.

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mattheo's diary
19th oct.

she's still testing me, still pushing my limits, seeing how far i'll go. and i'd go to the edge, jump off if it means she knows she's mine. i fought someone because she wanted to see me bleed for her. the satisfaction in her eyes made it worth every punch. i don't know if i can help myself anymore, but that's fine, i don't think she wants me to. i can see it in the way she looks at me, this hunger to consume everything i am. she doesn't have to ask, i'd give her every piece of myself.

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your diary
october 21,

it's funny how little everything else matters now. he's made sure of that. it's like he doesn't want me to have anything outside of him. and, honestly, i don't think i want to. we're bound by something thicker than love, something that makes everything else feel meaningless. i can see it in his eyes, this craving to own every part of me, like he needs to be the only thing i rely on. and i do.

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mattheo's diary
24th oct.

i need to document my thoughts and feelings about her. i can't stop thinking about how to make her mine entirely. i even took a lock of her hair while she was sleeping. i told myself it was just a keepsake, but deep down, i know it's more than that. i want to own every part of her, physically and emotionally.

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mattheo's diary
25th oct.

she went out without me today. it shouldn't matter, but fuck, it does. every second she was gone felt like losing part of myself. she's all i have, all i am. i don't want her to have anything in her life that isn't me. and she doesn't need saving. neither of us does. this is what love is. it's needing her so much that i can't breathe without her.

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mattheo's diary
26th oct.

i've been following her when she thinks i'm not around. i know it's wrong, but i can't help it. i need to know what she's doing, who she's talking to. she deserves all my attention, and i can't let anyone else have even a second of it. and holy shit, i saw her laughing with some guy again today, and it twisted something inside me. i wanted to confront her, but instead, i just went to her room and destroyed a few more things, old photos, childhood memories, anything that reminded her of life before me.

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mattheo's diary
27th oct.

every day feels like i'm losing a piece of who i am. she made me rip up my old photos because i destroyed hers, and i felt so hollow afterward. but it was fair. those moments were a part of me, but when i saw her smile, it felt so worth it.

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your diary
october 27,

after he destroyed my things, i decided it was only fair to make him do the same with his. i made him destroy his stuff. i could see how much it hurt him. he shattered his old records and ripped up pictures, but there was a strange satisfaction on his face while he did it. it was like he was relieved to let go because it meant he knew i cared enough to want him completely focused on me. seeing him sacrifice those pieces of himself made me feel powerful, and i liked it. i know we're both losing parts of ourselves, but as long as we have each other, i think we're okay with that.

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mattheo's diary
28th oct.

she's making me cut ties with everything i've ever known, and i'm letting her. i told my friends i didn't want to hang out anymore, and they didn't understand. i could see the confusion in their eyes, but i don't care. i love her. i can't remember the last time i hung out with anyone else. they're all distractions now, nothing more than echoes of a life i once had. the only thing that matters is her. i'm starting to keep tabs on her every move, making sure she's not getting too close to anyone else. it's the only way i can feel safe.

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your diary
october 29,

the truth is, i wouldn't want to save myself from him even if i could. my world was so small before, but with him, it's all-consuming. i don't need anything else. he looks at me like he'd tear apart the world if it meant keeping me. and i want him to. i want him to need me so much that i'm the only one left, the only thing he has. i want him to have nothing but me. and i know he feels the same. we're bound, and i wouldn't want it any other way.

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mattheo's diary
30th oct.

she's taken everything from me, and somehow, i'm grateful. i know she wants me to be entirely hers, with nothing else to distract me. i don't know if i can pull myself back from this. part of me thinks i shouldn't even try. she doesn't want me to have anything in my life that doesn't revolve around her, and i'm okay with that. we've isolated ourselves from everyone else, and now it feels like it's just us against the world. without her, i'd be lost, and honestly, i think she feels the same way. we're both completely alone, but at least we're alone together.