Hello my happy pill,
How are you doing? I hope you're doing amazing. Always!
Well, I'm not doing okay at all. You know? My usual, never ending, family tantrums. Yeah! Once again, I'm at my lowest. Not feeling fine at all. It's too much to handle and right now, I'm craving only one thing, only one thing can heal me— you!
I can't even explain how desperately I'm missing you right now. I want to share everything that is going on in my life. I'm craving your presence beside me, just to make sure you hold my hands and listen about my messed up situation. I'm yearning to hear some sweet nothings from you to keep myself motivated somehow. Because right now, the only thing that can fix me is— your ever so heavenly hug!
I just want to meet you so badly but, I know if I really get the chance, I'll end up being panicked as hell. Just Leave about meeting, I can't encourage myself to even talk to you. Obviously, it's not such a big deal for me. I can message you or call you anytime I want, without even thinking and without any hesitation. And I know, at the same time, you too, will gladly hear me out without mocking at me. But, I just can't. As I've decided, I can't. I have to stay away from you. I can't enter your life again, despite knowing the fact that, I will always be welcomed heartedly by you,no matter after how long I come back to you. But still, I can't be selfish for myself right? I can't!
Why did it turned out so bad? I never wanted this. I never ever expected this awkwardness to happen, atleast not between us. I never even dreamt of the day, when we both will be separated, especially, when I have to distance myself, that too, from no one else but you? I never imagined that I, the one who always used to say that—
'I can't afford to lose you',
'I can't stay away from you',
'Never leave me',
is the one who left you and, is the one who distanced herself even if, she can't be able to bear this grief of separation. Afterall, she has to stay away from none other than the other half of herself only.
Anyways, I can't share all these with you, can I? I know I can but, I can't. But atleast, I can write it all for you in the letter, even if it will remain unsent forever. Still, I'll assume that you have read that and it will, somehow, lessen my pain and stress perhaps. In that case, thank you for hearing.
In addition to that, I never said but thank you for always being there by my side and comforting me in the way that, no one else can ever do. Thank you for being such a wonderful friend nah— soulmate! Thank you for entering my life and making it less painful and more beautiful! Thank you for existing!
Thank you for everything!
Love you so much my mood booster!
Your not so happy friend
Khushi
★~~• 30 October, 2024 •~~★
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PoetryWe are not written in the stars... "Because she is meant to be written by me!" ~khushicreates All the photos are being taken from Google, it doesn't belong to me.
