2: Pushing

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by kllcarlxD

by kllcarlxD

Jumping out of the car, I arrived home. I grabbed my backpack and ran inside, shutting the door loudly. My mother looked worriedly toward me. She knows that I have issues, but she wasn't ready to deal with my moodiness today. Most of the time, I didn't let the teasing from the popular boys get to me, but today, I felt like my nerves were on fire. After hearing Jet say that I liked Elijah...I was getting angry. Elijah was my best friend. I adored him and we would hang out all the time. Maybe that's why when we hung out last week, I lost control.

Last Saturday..

"Caesar!" Elijah smiled at me. He had ADHD, so we were a perfect fit.
I'd never tell him how I felt. Heck, even I didn't know what the feeling I got when I looked at him was. It certainly couldn't be attraction. I'm not a homo. I'm straight...
But everyone has said that I was gay, and that scared me to death. Elijah didn't seem like he'd hate me if he knew.
"Want to pla-" I cut Elijah off by kissing him. He staggered back but I couldn't stop myself. I just stared down at him and went to touch him, holding him as I almost cried into his shoulder. Words had failed me as my bony fingers gripped him. He peered at me as I kissed him again without a thought, and he... kissed back.
He kissed me back.
Even so, he still ran out of there quick, red faced and sweating. So was I.
I collapsed onto my bed.

So now here I was, aimlessly sending Jet a TikTok about.. kissing the homies? I don't know.
What does it mean? Does Elijah want me to kiss him or not? Or maybe he really did like me. No wait...he called me a liar, that was a lie. But he did kiss back! And I liked it.
But I'm not gay. Jet would bully me for eternity. I set my phone down not knowing what tomorrow what bring upon me.