Moving On

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    lf i thought things were going to change the next day, I was wrong . Allen was still not talking to me . Today was even different . He wasn't just not talking to me.  He was avoiding me completely . He never looked in my direction the whole day and it was when i started fussing that I knew I was doing too much . It really shouldn't matter. The whole day, I decided to focus on work and not pay any mind to Allen . Our relationship was completely professional , was it not ? So that's how it was going to be then.
Message received, Allen.
In the afternoon when lunch came , I skipped it. I was just working away.  Strangely, I hadn't yet worked an appetite. I was surprised considering this morning,  there was a meeting on the upcoming work trip and it went on for quite.a number of hours .  I sat next to Megan this time and I remembered how Allen smiled at everyone , except me of course . I knew I shouldn't care but had I said something wrong last we spoke ? It was eating me up to figure out what the problem was .
After reviewing some documents and going over some issued dates for some projects , I decided to take a break to visit the washroom .

  I sighed with relief when I remembered I had brought a sanitary item along.  If I hadn't , I wouldn't have known how I would have changed myself. I knew Grace might have some on her but I found it awkward asking girls for feminine hygiene products.
It was past 5 pm when I realized Morgan had still not called or texted .
Was I always to remind him on when he was to pick me up from work?.
I checked my phone again, going through my spam when Grace came to my work desk.

" Oh, hey Grace" i said and grabbed my bag to leave for home .

" Mr Clyde wants to see you"

" Allen?"

She looked at me like I was nuts . Maybe because I had used his first name.
" Yeah, apparently" She answered and went to her desk.

" Huh " I said and let go of my bag.
I was still in pain when i walked to Allen's office . I knocked when I got there , tapping my foot in pain . I knocked once , twice , but he didn't respond so I opened the door myself and he was seated infront of his computer . I was looking at him but his eyes were still very much on his screen.

" I didn't ask you to come in" he clicked his pen repeatedly, his eyes still on his computer.

"You called for me"

" I know" he said curtly and I rolled my eyes . I was in too much pain to have to deal with this right now . I still held tightly onto the doorknob , tapping my foot but it wasn't helping with my cramps in any way. If anything , it was a cry for help .
He looked up and observed me for a second or two before grabbing some forms and walking away from his seat . It was my cue to leave my door post and walk towards him . I wanted to lean against his desk so bad but this wouldn't be my first time battling cramps so I could endure for a few minutes even if he didn't offer me a seat until of course , I would finally pass out .

" I want you to work on these".
Me eyes almost popped out of his sockets with his words but I didn't give any reaction . I was dying right now and he wanted me working when it was even past working hours ? Did he hate me that much now ?
I didn't respond and just stretched my hand to take the forms and he seemed surprised that I didn't complain.

" Not today though . You can look over them tomorrow "
Oh , so he was expecting a reaction .He just loved to test my patience , didn't he ?

I nodded as he continued talking .
" I trust you to handle them better . I trust your judgment"

" Okay, may I take my leave now ?"

" Uhh, yeah"

I gave him a nod and turned to leave when he held me back . Allen's grip on my wrist surprised me I jolted a bit and he noticed.
" Sorry for scaring you but what's up with you?"

" Nothing "

" its not nothing "

" I am merely following instructions".

" Since when?" Allen smirked

" You're my boss. The least I can do is behave myself in the workplace "
Allen pulled me closer, his gentle , yet firm grip still on my wrist .

" Hey, is everything okay?"

" It's now you want to talk? You've been avoiding me the whole time right after i come back to work . You gave me such an interesting welcome and now you want to know if everything is okay? You are playing some game with me and im not interested"

" You aren't?" 
Allen raised an eyebrow teasingly and I on the other hand found it very annoying . It was when he brought his face closer , his lips almost closing on mine his height towering over that I knew it was over for me . I leaned in but a sharp cramp brought me back to reality and I flinched , a pained expression on my face.
Allen left my wrist . He looked panicked and he helped me to a seat .

" Hey , you good?"
I didn't respond and was just grateful he got me to a seat . My knees and ankles felt so weak and the pain was just numbing my limbs and was consistently radiating from my waist down through to my legs . I stretched my legs away from him and relaxed my back , slouching further in the seat .
I got a glimpse of Allen smiling and I looked up at him quizzically.
"It's your period , is it not?"

" How do you know that?" A hair falling over my face. He reached over and pushed it back behind my ear. I liked that he did that but with the pain i was in, I barely had the time to register what he did.

" I know "
I rolled my eyes over his answer . He was always curt with answers when he was hiding something .

I placed a hand over my abdomen.
" You always used to do that back when we were dating . Every single time you had your period "
I smiled , remembering .
Allen was not the most perfect boyfriend but he made me happy . Almost always . I remember when he used to let me lay in his lap and would rub my back . He would kiss me repeatedly and look at me every few minutes to ask if I was okay while watching a highlight of his football match. I hated the sound of his matches . Would usually tell him to decrease the volume on his phone.  During those times , I usually was annoying half of the time but Allen wasn't the type of boyfriends to try to escape by saying he had assignments to attend to . He would stick right there .

" You're right" I finally managed to say giving him a little smile . He smiled back then looked concerned for a moment as he took the sheets from me

" Let's get you to the house. I'll assign the work to someone else"

" Oh don't worry and I'll Uber "

" You still Uber ?

" You've noticed huh"
I chuckled , feeling sorry for myself. My expression changed when i felt another cramp.

" You're allowed to be stubborn.  Just not today , Sky" he said and helped me get up and locked up his office before getting me to his car . I told him I needed to get my bag so I got those from my office too and I was expecting Allen to make a comment about Morgan not being around but his concentration was on getting me to his car .It was a sleek black Maserati.  I went in and admired it for a while . It was my first time in Allen's car.
When Allen drove me to my apartment , we didn't make small talk. I understood how unnecessary a conversation would be right now . Besides the fact that it might help me get my mind off the pain, he was trying to get me to my apartment quicker and I had made it clear I didn't want to catch up so there was no need for one.
   When he got me to my place , I saw him looking around . It would be his first time seeing my apartment .Hopefully his last . He looked around the driveway .
" I believe I've been around here a couple of times."

" Oh okay" I looked out the window. I was about grabbing the door to leave but he left his seat and walked to my side to get my door .i smiled at his courtesy.
" Thanks"
He helped me climb out of my seat before closing the door behind me.
" And Sky, I'm sorry for being a jerk"

I looked at him and nodded .
" You're forgiven . I won't ask you the reason for your behavior though. I'm used to you being a jerk anyways "

I patted him a little on the shoulder and was happy to see his face change slightly to annoyance after my statement. . That was what he got for letting me overthink.